I Am A Cutter

I am 16 years old. I just started cutting. I cut on my thighs and on my arms. I honestly do not know why I do it, because people have it a lot worse then me and they don't cut. I started cutting a couple of months ago, I think in like November. I don't cut much in fear that someone will notice the scars, but recently I started to cut on my thighs and stomach and I feel like I am going to be cutting there more because its easier to hide. I guess some of the reasons why I cut would be:
1. My dad's insane. He'd hit and yell a lot. Mostly my sister and my mom, but sometimes me. He'd always lock himself in his room and play video games and when I would go to ask him if I could play he'd say no and hit me. The day my parents got a divorce he took out a knife on us and threw baby hard baby toys at us, luckily none of us got hurt. After the divorce he would yell a lot but not hit. My parents got a divorce when I was 8 and I haven't seen him for I think like 7 years.
2. I've been fat all my life and I'm not exaggerating. I started getting fat in like pre-k.
3. My mom is insane. My sister and I think she's bipolar. She throws stuff and screams a lot. I think she's depressed. She has no friends. She's fat too. I think shes the top reason why I cut. She screams at me for everything, even if it isn't my fault. She punches and elbows me hard sometimes too. She never helps me with anything either. Its so hard to describe my mom because some days she can be really nice and the best mom on the whole planet but then other days she can be the worst and she brings me to tears and at night I go and lock myself in my room and cut and cry.
4. I feel like nobody likes me. I feel like my friends think I'm annoying and hate me. I feel like everyone makes fun of me.
5. Did I mention I'm a fat **** and I hate myself?
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Jan 21, 2013