Humiliating...

Last month I had to get 12 stitches in my arm, 3 inside and the rest outside... I really screwed up...

My arm is in so much pain that I still can't do very much with it just yet. I haven't cut myself in YEARS, it's like a recovering alcoholic relapsing 10 years later and getting ripped to the t*ts...

The worst part is living with the inevitable scar (slathering with vitamin E constantly), I can't stand my scars as it is and now this, I am completely self destructive... It's bad enough I refuse to wear short-shorts in the summer thanks to what I've done to my legs, I guess I just felt like butchering my arm in one quick swipe.

I hadn't done anything like this in years, and then out of the blue *poof* I practically cut my arm in two with a steak knife and have to go to the ER becauseĀ I have a fountain gushing from my arm....

I think the physical healing will take a lot less time than the emotional healing, i feel like I betrayed myself.

arenaissancewoman arenaissancewoman
31-35, F
Mar 4, 2010