Here I am another day (not another dollar cause I'm jobless). I'm not even sure who i am let alone what I'm doing. I live in a very small town and I have lots of kids so I have to be very careful what I say. But my older son walked out because he hates his step dad, he says he'll come home if I leave him. Ok one kid, but NO all my kids dislike him but his 2 children who are younger and really don't know him yet. In his defense he is attending counseling and tring to change. So here I am bad economy families need to be pulling together to survive and my children won't come near him. I have 2 married and out of the house. he asks why won't they come over? I try to explain but he does't see his faults as that bad of a thing. For 11 years hes been rude, demeaning, unrealalitic, and he is always right, always! So I gave up years ago and tried to just change me, well that worked for me so here I am unhappy and he needs me. Hes hurting physically and emotionally from feeling like a failure as a husband and father. AAAAHHHH............I am confused and I feel trapped. Maybe the grass isn't greener on the other side I don't know but I don't know how to be here anymore either.......look at my 5 year old and tell him I'm sorry I can't live with your dad anymore.