I Am A Disappointment.

I am a disappointment to my mother. I am not a Christian. I swear, I tend to have a vulgar sense of humour, and I have had sexual intercourse before marriage.

I also discovered that she is disappointed in me because in my final year of schooling I stopped putting in any effort. I got marks above what were required and got into university. But apparently that's not good enough.
She told me to do what makes me happy. What if all this time she was lying, and was secretly disappointed in me? I'm sorry I'm not like my sister, and I'm sorry I can't be what you want me to be.
AllieWolf6 AllieWolf6
18-21, F
2 Responses Dec 5, 2012

****'em. Be yourself and set your own standards to like yourself by. You can't please everyone. Be strong, big hug.

Hi Friend, I'm sorry that you feel this way. I think sometimes we are our own worst critics. It's hard to explain a Mother's love, especially when we aren't mothers ourselves. But I am a Mom and I have a bunch of children and they are all very different from one another. One excels at everything, another is having a hard time and can't keep it together. But that doesn't mean that I love one better than the other. A mother loves their kids no matter what. We may be disappointed with some of the choices that they make, but that's life. One day you will be a Mom and understand. For now, give your Mom a hug and thank her for all she's done. Time will heal all hurts and in a couple of years, believe me you will start to look at life a bit differently, especially after you've had your own kids! Now, if your Mom truly plays favorites, I'm sorry about that, but from your post, you don't seem to know for certain as well. So live life without regretting. Be the best person you can be and do things that you would be proud to tell your own children. Hang in there!