Go Ahead, Walk All Over Me
It's something I've struggled with my whole life. I just let people walk all over me. I'm just a really nice person and really afraid of confrontation. I don't know why I don't stick up for myself. I'm always the one to back down in an argument, just "agreeing" so the other person will leave me alone. I don't like hurting people's feelings, even if they deserve it. If someone calls me a b*tch, I say I'm sorry. I fantasize nightly about things I wish I had said during arguments were I had given in. And then I feel like Sh*t because I know that I would never the guts to say any of those things in person. I feel like I allow people to mentally beat me into submission. I wish I were more assertive about my needs, but I so often put others before myself. Why am I not important to myself? I feel like people take advantage of my kindness.