Sometimes I get lost in my own head and have to fight to get out.
Perfectdreamingskull Perfectdreamingskull
22-25, F
2 Responses Aug 26, 2015

That's normal behaviour

But it's such a nice, safe place to be, isn't it?

Is this sarcastic?

No, not at all. I sometimes live in my head because it's easier than to be fully present to other people. Sometimes other people will challenge my way of thinking and looking at things, and that can be a bit scary at times. I don't know if that's how you feel, but it is how I feel.

Why scary?

Well, I have certain deep-seated beliefs that govern the way I live my life, and when I listen to other people's points of view, I sometimes have to wonder if maybe I've been wrong all along. Then again, what if I'm right, but someone else convinces me that I've been wrong? It's always a risk to seriously consider what someone else is saying, if it radically contradicts what I believe in.

Are you talking about religion?

Among other things. Some of my beliefs go much deeper than what I believe about religion.

Such as?

My boyfriend wants me to move in with him. I've always believed that it's wrong to do that when you're not married yet. But he does have a separate bed that he would be happy to let me use. So I'm starting to question whether or not it would really be wrong. So I suppose religion does have quite a bit to do with it.

But it's about more than religion, it's about how I would feel about myself if I did that. And what if it didn't work out? How would that whole experience affect me? Those questions go way beyond my religious beliefs. It's about what I feel I can and can't handle, what risks I should and shouldn't take.

My mind is a vast and beyond ****** up place lol.

Oh, I'm sorry to hear that.

I don't have a response to religious morals. Other than it's just not for me.

I understand. A lot of people don't believe in religion, or don't feel that it should affect the way they live their lives. But I appreciate that you don't tell me that it's stupid or anything. I just have to figure out what the right thing is for me to do.

And I hope that you can be more at peace with your own mind. Sometimes our own thoughts can be contradictory and confusing too. I hope you can get it all sorted out.

How would you feel or what if it didn't work out, how would it effect you? These are all unknown factors everyone has to go through. That's just a fact of life. And people are amazingly resilient creatures. Don't let anxiety hold you back from living life.

Thanks. I won't. And I wish you all the best with whatever you're struggling with as well.

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