When The Rose Petals Fly (heroin)

i am 21 years old, when i was 13 my father commited suicide, started out with pot and coke right after that, then started selling pot, made a good bit  of money for a 16 year old, thought i was pablo escobar or some ****, stupid, by senior year i was in love with opiates, mainly oxys and stuff like that, i did try heroin however once when i was 16, just snorted it.. but i felt incredible, the girl that got it was a ******** and she shot up in front of me and her cousin (my buddy) at the time i couldn't even watch it almost made me sick, .. fell in love with a girl my senior year, really wasnt into pills to bad at first and this girl was awesome, she was beautiful and everything I wanted.. well I got complacent i must say because after high school and i had a job i started snorting H and doing pills alot, not full blown addicted to where i was getting sick yet but enough to make me spend a LOT of money on it.. we broke up and it did not end well.. it was like i was the one who was cuttin it off but really i was totally in love with her, so yeah it ended ugly and she slept with most of my friends afterwards..  i fell into a serious depression , had lost my job, lost my aprtmt.. lived in ahomeless shelter at 19 and wasnt even a full blown addict yet! got back on my feet somewhat, and thats when I picked the needle up.. now when i was 18 i did score tar from the mexicans and did shoot up but luckily got out an quit b4 the real withdrawls started... not this time.. every day for the next 10 months .. and if i didnt use i was miserable and dopesick.. lost everything.. faith from my family.. sold my car.. moved into a rough neighborhood.. was about to lose that even, got picked up with a needle, didnt go to court at first bcause hell I can't go to jail, i have a habit to feed! finally got sick and tired of being sick and tired.. detoxed w perks and dones.. turned myself in.. did 2 weeks, when i was in there a distatn cousin who i've never met came and visited me.. talking to me about God, I told him my story and him an his dad wanted to help, the day i got out I went to an intense christian mens home in the ghetto.. worked 9 hrs a day for no pay, the rest of the day was in the bible, .. bible study every morning at 6 am.. it was intense, but it was what I needed! now i am going on 80 something days clean.. i hear for some reason it gets rough around 90 days, today was kind of rough , somebody texted me asking if i could pick up for them .. (phones been off for a while) i prayed to God to help get me through it.. annd he did! Now i'm not aholy roller or anything but going into this program where I stayed for 35 days, changed my life and all the glory goes to God.. I still have my trackmarks but they are getting better, God has restored my life, I still have no car or job but I am working on that and my family is trusting me again :) IT feels great, wouldn't trade it for the world, to any other addicts out there I reccomend starting a relationship with the Lord, with him anything is possible!!!! Keep your dukes up, if your life is worth fightin for , your gonna fight for it =) I was breach, broke, busted and disgusted, paid more than i was willing to pay and stayed longer than I wanted to stay.. Addiction is a nasty thing and I know heroin is especially tough! But you can do it, You Must do it!! GOD BLESS       - Ian  (Ohio)