Admitting Is the First Step.

OK I am addicted to many things. I started drinking and smoking pot around the age of 11/12. There is so much of my life that I don't remember. Started smoking cigarettes at 12 as well. When I was 13, I first tried coke,  I also snorted Rids and tylenol 3.

I have battled this for a almost 5 years. It is crazy! I drink,  do coke, and pop or sniff perks whenever I can get my hands on it. It is such a relief to feel the line go up your nose, and taste the drips. Gawd I love coke.

When I start drinking, it is like death to run out of booze or go to sleep, I just want to scream; same with the coke. I think about it everyday. It is so awesome to be ****** up.

I smoke pot everyday, I haven't gone a whole day sober in 5 years! When I think about it like that I feel horrible. I think about drugs everyday. Uhh this is hard. Especially because I don't look like a drug addict, you would pass me on the street and never know.

I am a drug addict;

it's my escape,

my comfort,

my medicine...

My worst enemy

TiPoupon TiPoupon
18-21, F
4 Responses May 20, 2008

Admittance may be a step, but recovery from an addiction is a lifelong process

admitting is the first step. im proud of you for making it that far. <br />
now its time to decide, do you want to take the next step to recovery or do you want to continue down the path to you demise. <br />
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i was an addict to for quite some time but ive been clean for over 3 years. i know its hard to belive because im young but its true. <br />
its hard at first but as long as you have people in your corner you can overcome the addiction. i promise. however its only if you want to

You need to decide if you wish to continue your road of destruction to yourself or if you want to quit it all. If that is the case, get yourself into a drug rehab and work very hard to get off everything. It will be worth it, I promise.

i'm sorry. i wish that you do not have children, or get married, until your problems are under control.