I Only Call My Self A Dyke Because Im Gay And Feel As If I Were A Boy

I am 14 years old and a 'dyke'. Iv always known I was gay. I remember as a young child (ages 6-8) dressing like a boy, playing house and always being the dad. I never rly played with dolls. I prefered catcfhing snakes in the yard or fishing with my dad. My mom often yelled at my to stop walking like a boy cuz i looked like i liked girls. I now have a girlfriend. and dress, act,a dn anm considered one of the guys. I want a post op. Im also considering testosterone. As soon as i can get my hands on some. But my mom dosnt kno i am gay, or wish to be male/ i wear a wig tht i cut a short hair into. im soon moving with my father to live my life as a male.