I Feel Like I Am A Emotional MessI really wish I knew how to fix myself. I don't like feeling this way. I wish someone can tell me how to feel better or if I ever will feel better. My heart is broke and numb at this point. I feel like I cry all the time and I don't feel like getting out of bed. Going to work is hard. I don't like putting on a fake smile and laughing at my co-workers jokes when on the inside I just feel like crying. My emotions are so messed up. I wish if I can't fix myself someone else could.
I should add that some relationship issues are adding to all this. All I do is think of this man who hurt me. I feel like I did everything wrong even though I didn't do anything but love him and give up everything for him. He chose to leave me for a women who is nothing like what he said he wanted.
At my job, I do the same things everyday so I tend to think alot and then I end up thinking of him. It makes for a long sad day.