Always The Girl Smiling...

I'm always the girl smiling,talking my *** off to everybody, telling all the girls how pretty they are. 

 

Inside though, I am so broken and depressed.  There is almost....I don't know...rage? beyond my surface.  I am lonely and bitter that I have no close friends and the few people I open up to get annoyed with me. 

 

I do feel fake.

patchworkofmistakes patchworkofmistakes
26-30, F
3 Responses Mar 13, 2010

BeautifullyBroken,<br />
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I love your username ! I am sorry you are going through the same thing. It hurts and it's really lonely.

Couldnt have said it better myself, im pretty much going through the same thing. Except instead of rage its more sadness. And i feel like i have no close friends because they dont know the real me,

We all sometimes feel this dislocation to the real world. It is my hope that you will reach out past yourself to others and gain strength in helping them. You will grow in friendship. You will share.