My Life Has Two Eras: B.F. and A.F.--Before Fanfiction And After...It's getting to the point where I think I need a therapist. Or some form of professional help.
I've been addicted to fanfiction since I was twelve...I'm now twenty. It screwed up my high school experience, my grades, my college admission and is now threatening to take over college (I thought I had it under control for about a year, but eventually realized that I was deluding myself, and the only change was that I had accepted the fact that I was doomed to waste 6-12 hours a day on melodramatic drivel.) I've tried limiting my reading time, but when I start, I can't seem to stop. I've also attempted to go cold turkey on multiple occasions, but eventually get sucked back into the relentless black hole that is ff.net. I've also recently stumbled across livejournal, and discovered to my immense delight/horror the endless fic communities, conveniently arranged by fandom and pairing for my obsessive emersion.
I think my main issue is that I think about these stupid stories and characters all the time. And when I say all, I do mean ALL the time. Anything I do, whether it's talking to people, reading a book, watching a movie...it all somehow links to some experience that a character had in a fic I read. I really don't know what to do about it. I'm sure there's some perfectly sound psychological explanation as to why I do this--I'm not content with my life, I'm vicariously living through made-up characters-- but frankly, I'd just like to stop, since it's really f--king things up.
Telling a shrink that I'm addicted to fanfiction kind of sounds ridiculous, though.
sb411 18-21, F 8 Responses 0 May 27, 2010