Fat Girl Sex?
I have always thought of this, since starting high school two years ago. Recently, my best friend told me of losing her virginity. That got me thinking. I have never had a boyfriend, been kissed, or anything. I AM ABOUT TO BE A JUNIOR IN HS! I swear, im going to be the 40 year old virgin. I am wild at heart, and if i was skinny, would do anything! Skinny dip, anything! But, since i hate my body, Im not even comfortable thinking about having sex! Hello? I may have the wrong idea about what kind of guy I would do it with, but I want him to enjoy it to. I don't want him to be ashamed of me, of closing his eyes and imagining someone else. Of being practically fully clothed. It needs to be a mutual pleasure, and I dont want to pull an edward and bella and break a freakin bed....and its NOT from my strength. I dont have high expectations, but I am not a *****. I couldnt be a ***** even if i wanted to. I changed schools recently...going from a private school with 12 kids in 9th grade alone....to a public school for sophomore year...surrounded by girls dressed with hardly anything...and me dressing nice and not a single guy will look at me. It definitely makes my self esteem go from a 5 to a 2.8...fat girl problems.