Why Can't I Have Her Body...

She's just so skinny. Perfect legs. Perfect breasts. Perfect stomach. Perfect hips. No marks. Nicely tanned skin. I could wear a bikini and not care what people think. I could wear dresses and skirts and not worry about my fat alien legs! I wouldn't be self-conscience about finding a man and that i don't have to worry if he likes my legs or stomach. I don't have to worry about him going, oh hold on a second, you're fat! I could go to the beaches with my friends wearing a cute bikini and jump of the jettee into the blue ocean.

But that'll never happen. I'll never get to wear a bikini and not worry what people think. I will never be able to stop worrying about my alien legs. I will always be self-conscience of finding a man and i'll always worry if he'll accept my image and body weight. I'll never be able to go the beach wearing a bikini and jump of the jettee with my friends. And it sucks.
No matter how hard i try to lose weight, i just can't.
bluebird96 bluebird96
18-21, F
2 Responses Jan 17, 2013

I was a fat baby, fat child, and fat adult. In my 60 years on this earth, I have spent most of my life (from my teenage years) starving - starving and then binging. I gained more back than I had lost. It was a nightmare of a roller coaster both physically and mentally. I topped out at 260 pounds (5' 4") and I gave totally up on dieting.

Then I met a doctor, He prescribed the drug, MERIDIA. It was a miracle drug. You see, there is a walnut-sized place deep in the brain called the hypothalamus and it is the control center for food consumption, (Look it up on the internet) If you are obese (100 or more pounds), you probably have a problem in the compulsive control center of the brain (the hypothalamus).

If you are being treated for an issue in the brain - like clinical depression or something - ask your doctor to add FLUOXETINE to your current meds. It does the same thing as MERIDA.

Both of these drugs change your eating habits, It's absolutely amazing. I, too, went to McDonalds (or some where like it) before going to a gathering. I got out of bed in the mornings daydreaming about what I would eat at lunch and dinner, A [fat] friend and I traveled together and we spent hours discussing what we could eat throughout the coming days, And more and more. I didn't realize how insane it was - until I got that little pill.

I lost 100 pounds. I never dieted and I never exercised (I do regret that); I never counted a calorie or denied myself anything I wanted. The deal was that I just didn't want it anymore. I could think of a hamburger and it felt heavy and greasy. I could think of a salad and it seemed perfect and wonderful. When I did want a hamburger, I ate it. I continue to take the pill, but in the last 6 years, I haven't gained an ounce.

Please talk to your doctor. If he doesn't give you one of these pills, find another doctor. In all my years, I've only had two doctors who knew of these drugs and understood my problem. Don't give up.

Wow, thank-you for writing all of that. :)

You are beautiful what ever your size. There are guys out there who believe image is not evening