I Am a Big Girl

I was a fat girl and I did'nt even know it. The first time I notice I was really big is went I was in high school. My friend was looking for me at lunch time, and she told me this guy had told her yea i saw your "fat friend". From that moment on, I was soooooooo aware of my wieght. I try to get on a diet went I was in 11th grade, I was to week to stay on a diet.  I gain so much wieght. For the past couple of years, I ate  like a pig. I would eat  fast food everyday, I wasnt even finish eating and I was already thinking what I would be eating later on. It wasnt a good day if I didnt eat junk food. My whole life was around food. Went I was 18 it's went it got really bad. None of my jeans fit me, but I didnt want to buy new cloth beacuse I was embaressed to tell my family none of my cloth fit me. 6 months went by and all i ever wear was pans and long t shirts, and that just made me feel even worse about myself. Not only was I fat but i look and felt like crap. I got married 2 months before my 19th birthday. That just brought a whole bunch of other issues in my life. Wish made me eat even more. My ex was a big person too. We would sneek at night and eat fast food. Went I was 20 years old he walked out of my life. Things got better for me. I wasnt eating as much as I use to, Or think about food all the time. Now Iam 21 years old, but Im still over wieght.  The person I see in the mirror is not the person I see myself as. I want to feel good about myself. Iam sick of always thinking One day iam going to be the person I really want to be. Well the time has come. I give props to the people who say thier over wieight and happy, but Im not. Im not going to sit around and do nothing about my OVER wieght, been there done that and it has brought me no where. So 6 weeks ago, I started a diet. Ive lost 11 pounds, and I feel so proud of myself. I will not stop until Iam 150 pounds. I use to be 210 pounds and now i weight 199. My goel this year is to lose 30 punds. By the end of this year I want to wieght 170.

abby4real abby4real
22-25, F
3 Responses Feb 18, 2009

Good job😌 congrats, I hope you achieved your goal.

You are a beautiful friend...

thats good..take the initiative :) those people who say they are happy being overweight are at risk for their health...so its good about what ur doing....ur not only goin to look good but ur goin to live a healthy life...props :)