Can I Handle It?

I have been with the same guy for a year and a half. He just turned 20 and I will be 19 this summer. Even though we are young, we do talk about getting engaged and getting married someday. He is currently an on call firefighter but plans on being a full time firefighter for a big department someday. I've always supported his career choice and I love that he wants to save lives. He's honestly my hero and I feel like I constantly have a guardian angel looking over me. I'm so in love with him but I get nervous thinking about his job. I want to have a family someday with him and recently I've been thinking about it a lot. It will break my heart to not be able to fall asleep next to him every night. I know he's doing what he loves and that it's a good thing, it just makes me nervous.
mabaker6794 mabaker6794
18-21, F
2 Responses Feb 11, 2013

I ask myself the same thing sometimes. I have been with my boyfriend for almost 5 years now (high school sweethearts). I am 19 he is 21. He is working as an EMT but is also a volunteer ff and we've had some conflicts with scheduling and seeing each other. I get scared that if one day we have a family he won't be around as much as I'd like. I've come to understand hell be gone some holidays and be away for 3-4 days a week straight. I support him but I want to have that clarity that his wife and kids will be a main priority aside from his job. I just want balance "/ but I guess I won't know until it happens. God bless

I am seriously in the exact same position as you. am 19 and my 20 year old boyfriend of 3 years is an on shift fireman. Nights that he is on shift i cannot sleep, no matter if he tells me when they go on calls or not, i dont sleep until he is off the next morning. He is my absolute everything, and i think about what would happen to my future if something were to happen to him.