I can't relate to anyone in my highschool except for my boyfriend, and even though he understands me, I still feel like I'm just freaky and weird and a failure. I don't have any friends besides him, I feel like an outcast and like I'm worthless. The only reason I don't kill myself is because I'm too much of a coward. I cry all the time and I hate it. I'm completely different from every girl in my school, and even though I actually like that about myself, I also don't because no other girls want to be my friend. I'm a loner and a loser and a waste of space.