Looking For AnswersI don't know what my sexual identity is. I believed for a while I was attracted to both sexes. But whenever I try to reconcile it to my faith it eats me up. I can't do it. I know if I ever got into a relationship it would destroy my family, because they are against the idea of me getting into a relationship with someone of the same sex. I don't even know if its just a phase and I'm just afraid of intimacy with the opposite sex. I know there are sweet guys out there, but I feel like I'm surrounded by overbearing guys. I love my brothers, but they're kinda "traditional" in their views, bossy, one of them is anti-social, emotionally distant, my step-father was abusive. I grew up fully aware that we as women had to fight for our rights. I grew up fully aware that women around the world suffer under the hands of abusive husbands, fathers, other relatives, are raped, beaten, exploited, and I feel like the only reason they treat us nicely sometimes is that we as women had to train them to be that way. I know maybe thats not true. Exaggerrated, unfair! LOL...perhaps. But just bare with me while I cry a little.
I don't mean to explain away why I may or may not be attracted to the same sex either. Don't get me wrong. And guys, please don't be offended. I'm just pouring my heart out. I know there are plenty of nice guys out there. I'm just being honest about the beliefs I've had. Anyway, I have other questions too. I'm trying to become more familiar with gay-friendly Christian communities. I'm trying to figure out what all they believe. This is my first time stepping in and I'm taking a risk. So, here it is.