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Im not going to lie. My families recent disapproval and literal abandonment and unacceptance(which they made clear) its too embarrasing and its needs to be hidden. There friends dont need to know, neither do any neighbors

I wont lie, I have conteplanted suicide because of this. I havent made a decision just yet and I do have a couple of people in my life(who i have just recently met) that have been accepting. I hate feeling this way, and I am going to fight. I just dont know if my spirit is broken. I am mentally, emotionally and just physically worn out. Not much left.

Tazchi Tazchi
26-30, M
11 Responses Mar 16, 2009

I wonder the same thing Gay, but I have heard the same stories from so many others. Parents should love their children unconditionally, its sad to see that for some parents, that's just not true anymore.

i like that idea, i have always liked ice cream. ty for taking the time to comment on my story

I just want to agree with what everyone else has said. And say that things will get better... I promise, just give it time. grab a pint of ice cream instead. It always helps me.

I can remember being in your shoes 20 years ago. My mom didn't take it well..she had one of those Tammy Faye Baker come aparts ;) I was stopped in my tracks because I felt unsupported and didn't have any friends to trust with this kind of information but I had seen a therapist because I knew it was who I was and I needed to learn how to be me. It wasn't an easy journey but now I have an awesome circle of friends who love me for who I am, a stable job and for the first time in my life, I think I've fallen in love. Just because it looks horrible right now doesn't mean it always will be. And by the way, I'm Southern too and still living in north Alabama. You'll be great!!! P.S. My mom has come around, not completely, but we did salvage our relationship years ago and we're still very close.

The advice I am getting here is making it easier for me to see thats its ok to be me. Its like you have said, its their loss. We live once and I want to be happy in this lifetime.

I echo the sentiments of everyone else here. Learn to love yourself for who you are, and ignore those who would rather judge you, than get to know the real you. It is THEIR loss, in not knowing you. You can always remind yourself that you are a special person, and that there is a way through, afterall, millions of us around the world have made it through.<br />
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Stand tall, be yourself (though in some places, it pays to be a bit discreet about your sexuality), and don't let anyone tell you that the way you are put together is wrong.<br />
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And whenever you find friends (gay or straight), who truly accept who you are, treasure them. Every friend, especially whose who are straight or mix in the wider world, is part of a change for the better.

being gay isn't something to be ashamed of. I have been right where you are. I ignored the bigoted comments from others (still do). Yeah I know that some days are harder than others. Life is for living so explore your new life style. Put them behind you. Accept who you are and forget the rest. Enjoy life. It really is worth it.

That is so wrong of your family to abandon you. You can't control your sexual preferences, and you are made the way you are made. Don't contemplate suicide there are still many people who care about you.

Wow! I didnt expect the outpouring of support. Thank You All! I have realized that I dont want to go anywhere at all. If they cant deal with it, I dont need them. Thats ok. There are other people in the world. I am not going to live my life unhappy for their benefit. Everyday, they attempt to change me. Alot of arguments and fights have happened. Luckily, I have made a friend who is 100% supportive(live here too). Its time to fight and move on. No shame in being me. Thanks again for helping me realize that.

My friend if people dont except you for you then you dont need them in your life. I hate to say but even if its your family. your family will lurn to except you in time. Just give them a while. Please dont hurt yourself. If you cared yourself the people of love you would be hurt so bad and your family would to even if you think they dont like you. there just not use to the real you and you have to give them time. <br />
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Hope things are well. <br />
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Tom

YOU are a beautiful human being and you <br />
deserve all the love and happiness this world can give you <br />
no matter who it is with