Two Girls Holding Hands.
So as you know, im also a girl in love with a girl. Im more than mature for my age, and ive only truly been in love with one guy, a guy who i still share feelings for today, as does he. As i progressed through high school, i found the guys to be so immature and careless about education and later discovered the guy i loved was in a new relationship. i felt lonely even though i had friends. but then...i met her. she was my best friend, literally we were two complete different people but we somehow clicked. a couple of months later, she confessed she had been liking me since we met, this girl is beautiful not to mention. so i was like a bit creeped out because its against my morals to date another girl, but i spent the night at her house hoping we'll straighten things out, unfortunately everything led another way and now we've been in a relationship for two years. as time went by, i noticed a change in her...she was very jealous, but i spent everyday with her. problem is that im deeply attached to this girl, but i have higher expectations for myself. i believe i deserve a husband, children, a family, and its really hard to let go of her, i sometimes even wish to spend my life with her, and i dont like to wish that. so one night my ex called me, poured his heart out and has been trying to see me. a guy i had been in love with for more than three years...im confused, unsure of what to do. i love my girlfriend to death regardless of the times she's hurt me, i wish there were more like her and its a shame a girl can exceed a mans standards...but the one guy i love, is at the palm of my hands, he knows about me and her and doesnt judge me about it he understands, but my gf hates him to death.....i really need advice.