I'm Straight But With One ExceptionWhen I started secondary school, there was a girl in my tutor who was always acting differently around me then she was with everyone else. To begin with, I didn't really like her that much, she was naughty, I was good. She was loud, I was quiet. Her friends were as loud as rude as her, Mine were quiet and litterly hated her.
But then one of my friends got quite close to her and would always talk to her in our french class. My friend then made me talk to her, as she thought I was being rude. Me and the girl then started talking on the internet and over the holidays, she told me she loved me. At first, I was scared but then she let it go. After a couple of weeks, she said it again, and I said I loved her too.
At the beginning of year 8, two of my best friends moved abroad. And me and the girl got closer. In time, we was crazy in love. We got accused of being lesbians, and it really annoyed me. But then she asked me out and I said yes. We didn't let anyone know, but then the girl told her "best friend".
I was really jealous and maybe a little bit obsessed that the girl would go off with her best friend. I know she loved her, it was obvious.
Sure, we had our arguments, but we was so in love, they never lasted long.
One day, though, we had an argument. She ended everything, and we didn't talk for about a month. I started self harming and then one of my friends took me to the teacher. They called my mum in, and in the end, I wasn't allowed to talk to her.
I'm still not allowed to talk to her, but we do in secret.
The only hope I have left, is that we can be together in the future, that we'll move in somewhere together and live happily together.
Other than this girl, I've been out with boys only. To be honest, even thinking of loving another girl disgusts me.
I'm totally straight, but with this one, amazing exception.
So if you are too, it's totally normal.
lelelouise 13-15 7 Responses 4 Aug 19, 2010