My Thoughts And Feelings For You(only You)..

As i decided yesterday that i will try to move on, to accept the fact that maybe you dont love and try not to come in your way. It was hard but i made myself understand that iam hoping for something which is impossible. For about a year now i have kept it to myself that iam in love with you.i ask myself everyday that why dont you love me? but hey we cannot chose to love anyone right, love just happens and iam in love with you. I know you dont feel anything for me, you treat me like every other girl. but i would like to tell you that you do mean the world to me, you are my life, you are the only one that i can see, i dont care about others. you are the best girl in this world, you are the one that iam ever going to need. you are the only one for me.. words cannot express how i feel about you. Yes iam in love with a girl and im glad that i have fallen in love with you and no other girl, you are really special, infact you are my angel. no you didnt hurt me intentionally, you dont even know iam madly in love with you. I wont ever tell you because i dont want people to say that iam foolish and laugh at me. i actually dont know how will you react but iam not prepared to say something which will cause pain to me. yes iam scared....scared to express who really iam and how i feel about you..Michaela you are everything to me..i dont want anything from you,i just want to know you better..i love for who you really are and not for whom you are pretending to be. i no you and your sister do talk about me but hey why keeping it a secret, if you want to ask me something please ask me face to face. i have no idea what you guys talk about me but i no that your sister is not taking it well. why does she give me all those weird looks all the time?..i made myself accept it that you dont love me..i promised  myself that i wont plan a meeting with you or try to even come in your way..i was okay since that morning..i didnt see you or didnt even try to see you, i was feeling low since the morning but i was strong until you showed, i couldnt take it..you saw me and i saw you, our eyes met for seconds then i looked away from you trying to keep the promise i made to myself. after school we met again,you were there and you looked straight at me but i just know you dont love me maybe you know that i like you thats why you always give me blank looks..you guys talk behind my back but its okay i just want to let you know that i want to see you happy, i dont want anything else, i just want you to be safe..if i was there with forever i would have never ever hurt you or let anyone hurt you. i can die for you and if ever anything harms you in anyway i promise i will be there beside you it doesnt matter if you want me to be there or not.. and you may never understand this feeling of mine

i think its time for me to walk away..and believe me it is the hardest thing that iam going to do..iam going to set myself free from this pain iam going through right now.. its the most differcult thing that iam going to face in my entire life..but you will always remine in my heart as a good memory..you will always flow right back to me like a river..one day iam over you but the next day you are all i have ever wanted and hoped for..but i know what i must do now..and iam glad that i have fallen in love with a girl like you.. i cant thank god enough for making me fall in love with such a lovely special girl..i will never forget you!

Iam sure all this is for the best...i cant love you less... you are the only one that i want by my side.. im sure that i would never ever love someone like i have loved you.. you will always make me want to be a better person..thank you soo much for showing me what love really is..
you are my angel michaela...and i will always love you till the very end....