How Can I Love You If I Can't Even Figure Myself
I never dated a girl before, I never thought that its possible for me to love a girl until I met you. But here I am a 18 year old girl sharing my feelings to the whole how I really feel about you. Its hard for me to say anything right now becoz i cant figure myself out. Im not sure if I love this guy or you... I love you so much that I would even die for you. If you needed a shoulder to cry on I will always be here to listen and talk to you. I think you know that but still I will keep reminding you becoz I think you dont get it. My love for you is so strong that I would make sure that you will be okay every single day of your life. When you tell me that you have considered me as one of your very good friends that made me so happy and sad at the same time, happy becoz you trust and love me that one and sad becoz I feel like im cheating on you. Cheating on you becoz im not telling how I really feel about you. The only reason im not telling you is becoz im afraid on how your gonna react when you find out that I have fallen for you. So many questions keeps popping to my head like What if she doesn't feel the same way about me? What if she stops talking to me after I tell her? So many WHAT IF's..... I cant function if your not there.. I cant afford to lose you. I can pretend that I dont have feelings for you when your with me but I dont know how long that's gonna last becoz everytime im with you I just love you even more, I grow a little bit closer to you everytime your with me. I think about you all the time. Sometimes I feel like you know I have feelings about you for some reason.. We have small flings but doenst mean anything.. or maybe it is... idk what to do... I'm so confuse!!! Loving you maybe the hardest thing that happened to me but I'm so glad I met you becoz you made my life complete.