My 1st Gf

My best friend and I fell in love about 7 years ago. I had never been with a girl and neither had she. The feelings and chemistry were all there though. Evenutally she talked me into kissing her and it was amazing. We spent all of our time together and things were great. When she asked me to be with her I freaked out. I told her I would never be with a girl and pushed her away cuz I was scared. We were living together and sleeping together and I started bringing guys home and dating them to show everyone I wasnt into girls. The whole time I was really in love with her just scared. This went on for a little while and put a huge strain on our "relationship" long story short she ended up leaving me about a year and a half ago for another girl. I begged her to stay. Tried committing to her but she didn't want me. She used to call and txt me and tell me how much she misses me and loves me and knows her future is with me, but would never leave the new girl. We had a blow out fight about 2 months ago where I told her to stop playing games with me and told the new girl what she had been saying to me. She told me to get on with my life and never talk to her again. It's been almost 2 months since I have had any contact with her and almost 2 years since she left me. I miss her like crazy and I'm still in love with her. My life is just incomplete without her. I have tried dating other people and it just doesn't work. I really feel like she's the one for me. I just wish she felt the same :(
Mpjv310 Mpjv310
26-30, F
1 Response Dec 4, 2012

Well I'm sorry to tell you this but maybe she did feel the same, but when you blew her off she moved on and forgot about you. Maybe you could try asking her for one last chance, if it doesn't work out, then you can try to move on. I know it'll be hard but you should try.