So Jealous

So I was at the fair yesterday and I saw this lesbian couple and they looked so happy. I got really jealous and depressed for the rest of the night, because I feel like i'm never going to have that. I want a girlfriend so bad, but I haven't even come out to my parents yet, and no one else knows i'm gay except for one person. I wish other girls knew I was gay, but I don't really make it obvious. I just get angry all the time and feel so depressed, I feel like i'm never going to be happy. I wish I had someone to talk to.
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3 Responses Sep 16, 2012

I've experienced something similar. My prof in university was a lesbian. She was in health and nutrition, and was about 30 years old. She was very attractive and successful, and I found that her bright positivity and her values were something I admired. I almost felt in awe of her way of life, since I'm frequently surrounded by men and don't know much other than my man and other men's values. I wonder what my life would be like if I had that kind of a connection.

I'm sorry I know that feeling I go out in public and I have my 2 boys so no one suspects I am gay bc I don't look the part n I don't go to gay clubs and I'm very shy so I don't think I will evr meet another girl .

We can talk if you want. I know how hard it can be