Giving Myself Until Christmas

THE ONLY THING I HAVE TO LOOK FORWARD TO IS LEAVING THIS WORLD. IM NOT AFRAID OF HELL BECAUSE I AM LIVING IT NOW, RIGHT NOW.
TOO MANY YEARS THINKING OF IT BUT FAILING TO DO SO. A TRUE COWARD IN EVERY SENSE OF THE WORD. I WILL NOT BE ALIVE IN 2013. I PROMISE.
IF EVERY ANYONE NEEDED HELP IT WOULD BE ME. I AM SO ALONE. NOT EVEN ONE SINGLE FRIEND. CAN I BE MORE PATHETIC?
I AM EMPTY. I HAVE NOTHING TO GIVE AND NO ONE GIVES A ****.
NOT LOOKING FOR SYMPATHY JUST SO ALONE. SO AFRAID.
I DO WISH SOMEONE WOULD HELP ME. I CANT HELP MYSELF ANYMORE. I CANT. HONESTLY I WOULD LIKE TO KILL MYSELF BEFORE CHRISTMAS. THAT WOULD BE MY PRESENT TO THE WORLD.

IM SO ALONE. I WISH SOMEONE COULD HELP ME.
thebestloser thebestloser
41-45, F
Nov 30, 2012