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My son wanted to be a firefighter. He loved to dress up as such, and even go out with his cute outfit, telling everyone he would someday be the chief of all firefighters in the city. "Dad, I love you, but I don't want to have a boring job like yours... sitting all day in an office is just not for me!" 

I just came back from a business trip, and saw a firefighting helmet in a handcrafts local shop... everytime I see these things in toy stores, my chest feels very empty, and it hurts... It hurts missing my little boy, and wondering how he would look like now. He would be almost eight, and the only way of seeing him is in dreams. Always in dreams... 
sweetmeisje sweetmeisje 26-30, F 141 Responses Jun 22, 2010

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I will keep you on my prayers. He is in Heaven and is one of your guardian Angels. God will heal all of you. God bless you. Gary

Thankyou for sharing your grief with us. I am so very sorry for your loss.

I'm so sorry for your loss

SAD....but its not your fault.........pleaseeeeee it never is..........

Iwish I could tell you that it gets better, but it doesnt. It will scab over and then something will rip that scab off. I lost mydaughter, she was 26. But I have i have her daughter to raise. May God give you strength.

Losing my baby girl still is the worst thing I have ever been through. It seems for me to be the most lonesome. It breaks your heart and you are never the same. They are supposed to bury us. We are not supposed to have to bury them.

I'm sorry for your loss I'm sure he would of made a great firefighter

I didn't know :'(

That really sucks. I'm so sorry for your loss.

I can't even begin to imagine what you're going through. This is definitely a parent's worst nightmare. I'm so sorry for your loss. Hopefully it'll become easier to deal with as time passes by.<br />
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With love,<br />

Honey im so sorry for your loss

I am so sorry for your losses. I wish God give you strength and wisdom to keep your life on track and find peace of mind. s2

I am so sorry

i feel your pain i lost someone recently lost someone i was close to....:I

I am so sorry for your loss. I know how wonderful it is to see him in dreams. I long for dreams of my husband. I miss him more than words can say. Being left behind here is horrible. We have to believe that we will be together again. This time in between is just so hard to bear. May God bless you and bring you peace.

I am sorry for your loss. Just think. Someday you will get to rais him up. Right now he was needed to be a firefighter in heaven.

I'm so sorry for your loss.

I am very very sorry for your loss.<br />
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Hugs, take care..x

Oh my goodness honey I came across this page and my eyes teared up. I am so sorry that you had to go thru this I wish I could take the pain and hurt away. I cannot even imagine loosing one of my children and what it would do to me. I love that you shared this and the good memories of him. Hugs I am here if ever you need to talk. My prayers are with you and your family and May God bless you and give you strength and courage.

I'm sorry, I could feel the pain as I was reading your story. I'd seen it also with my mom when my brother passed. She was mourning deep inside for years and we thought she was ok. But there was a day when she had mentioned my brother and that time I'd seen that my mom hasn't let go, then I told her "he (my brother ) was given to you temporarily to take care while he was here and you did your part well, and now he has to be somewhere else and in a good place". After few days I'd seen the enlightment in my mom's words and and I felt that she had let go . I love my brother and priceless memories stays in my heart as always.

Am sorry for your loss i could feel your pain reading this story.

I'm so sorry

Saying I understand your pain is a lie , I don't I don't think it's fair when there are so many people who are death row that should die in place of an innocent child , I do admire your strength and pray that god makes right this wrong you have had to endure ...

I am so sorry ....i know the pain of losing a child's one that never goes away's always there ..a bittersweet reminder of once was ...i know in time it will be easier ...<br />
as in my life ...i have always felt him close by me ... Hugs and prayers

I'm sorry for your loss.

Your son will be always with you no matter where he is You heart and his heart are connected and will always be. <br />
Hes propably watching you from above with a huge smile in his face ^_^ being proud that he had a mother like you. A mother who wanted her son to fulfill his dream. <br />
Who knows he might already have in his new world

I am so sorry.

So sorry for your horrible loss. My so is 12 now and it hurts to even think of losing someone so young and special.<br />
Love and Hugs mb

Very sorry for your loss. That was a beautiful story.

You are very lucky to have wonderful memories... I miscarried my baby girl and wish I could have that. Never forget him and well done on being so positive... You can be an inspiration