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My son wanted to be a firefighter. He loved to dress up as such, and even go out with his cute outfit, telling everyone he would someday be the chief of all firefighters in the city. "Dad, I love you, but I don't want to have a boring job like yours... sitting all day in an office is just not for me!" 

I just came back from a business trip, and saw a firefighting helmet in a handcrafts local shop... everytime I see these things in toy stores, my chest feels very empty, and it hurts... It hurts missing my little boy, and wondering how he would look like now. He would be almost eight, and the only way of seeing him is in dreams. Always in dreams... 
sweetmeisje sweetmeisje 26-30, F 139 Responses Jun 22, 2010

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Thanks for sharing. It must be a terrible feeling to lose a child and all those precious memories...

I'm so sorry, but I am so glad that the time you spent with him was beautiful.

I just want to extend my condolences to you... and my hugs. My parents lost their son, my big brother, when he was five years old. Reading your story reminds me of the pain I know they still have even all these years later at missing him. Overtime they have found they can cherish the good memories and smile. I was born the year he died and I wish very much that I had known him better. I am a parent now and I cannot fathom how I would ever cope with losing a child. What I do know is that there are seasons for everything in life and sometimes life is taken when we feel it shouldn't be, but somehow that pain.. that pain is a growing curve. You are a strong person I am certain. This is how I see my parents... strong.

I'm over whelmed and at a loss for words other than I'm so sorry......<br />
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There are no words that can heal your loss. But know that you are not alone. My parents lost their first baby girl, and 32 years later, the pain in their hearts is just as real as the day it happened. What I can say, is I feel it made them better parents to me. They understand life is a gift and appreciate every moment, they are the best parents I could ever ask for with their loving protection. I have learned things I couldn't have without the wisdom they taught me. Without them, I would not understand certain beauties in life. I would not know the Lord...He has given angels wings over them, and I feel forever in debt to them, and especially to Our Father in Heaven. You and your family will be in my prayers...

i am so sorry for the lost of your child, accept my sympathy :)

I'm sry for your loss... I know i wouldn't ever be able to heal from that bcuz your son and/or daughter is your blood... and I would hate to lose them... hope you feel better in the long run...

I'm so sorry, we feel for you. Please know, that we hope that for you there'll come a day when you won't hurt too much.

I wore a firefighter's helmet for 28 years.My love,light,and energy goes out to you..

Thank you everyone for your beautiful comments and taking the time to read.

I'm sorry. Seems like you're pulling through though. You can probably focus on all the positive experiences of the times he spent in this world. I can recommend a book called "The Power Of Now", which has this great idea that you must focus your attention on the now, on this very moment and only let your mind live in the present or the future when it's doing you any good (thinking of fond memories for instance). You can learn to surrender yourself to the now, i.e. not resisting events that have already taken place. Maybe the book will help you even further. I know it helped me. Shine on!

thank you for sharing

I almo0st cried..i'm so shorry..<br />
Everything happens for a reason...

I almo0st cried..i'm so shorry..<br />
Everything happens for a reason...

I almo0st cried..i'm so shorry..<br />
Everything happens for a reason...

I almo0st cried..i'm so shorry..<br />
Everything happens for a reason...

im so sry u lost ur son, wiht a loving mom like u im sure he wldve grown up 2 b a very respectible and responsible man

Im so hurt for your loss. I am the father of a 22 year old police officer. Thoughts of losing my son sometimes cross my mind. I cant have any idea of what your going through. I will be praying and thinking of you today. Tom In NC

So sorry to hear about ur loss. One day u will see him alive in the flesh. I dont know if u believe in the Bible but since I also lost my brother I find comfort in the sc<x>riptures @ John 5:28-29 which says: “Do not be amazed at this, for a time is coming when all who are in their graves will hear his voice 29 and come out—those who have done what is good will rise to live, and those who have done what is evil will rise to be condemned."

I like this.

Very sorry - hope you can heal.

Big hug i am so sorry, it is never easy to loose a loved one you have a community here that supports you x<br />
thank you for sharing

He is in heaven right now. You may want to read "Heaven Is So Real".

I am sry for ur loss parents should never have to bury their children

I am sry for ur loss parents should never have to bury their children

You know where your son is? He is with the other 343 firefighters from FDNY. They are taking good care of him, watching out for him and making sure he would make you proud just like they did for each other.

He might be an angel fire fighter

hey, be strong. you are not alone in this fight, you have God with you and we are here even if we dont know each other yet but you can talk to us, we will listen. i know its painful but you'l get through this. be strong. *hugs

My deepest, deepest condolences. There are no words.

I am so sorry. My sister died, but she was a still birth. But because of her death I got 2 other sisters. Be strong he will always be with you. Your memorys keep him alaive.

Your story was touching to me. Its a tragedy sometimes that some people just throw away what they have in a family yet others don't have a choice... Even others don't know a good relationship and/or have children to speak of.. Life is sometimes really not fair.

I am so sorry for your loss. I can only imagine how heartbreaking such a thing would be. My prayers go out to you all. May the Gods ease your pain and fill your hearts with the with the joy of sweet memories.

Tragically beautiful memory.

i'm sorry for you'r is too strong my dear.

Hi<br />
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I was born in South Africa. This story is about my nephew.<br />
When we were young about 9 years old my nephew always said that he wanted to become a fireman. He joined the firefighters as a volenteer when he was 13 years old. He delivered 5 babies in the back of an ambulance by the time he was 18 years. He did his figherfighting course and became a figher fighter. But then he died in a car accident when he was 21 years old. I miss my nephew very much. He was like a brother to me. <br />
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Your story has reminded me of him - and all that I wanted to say was that I can understand a small amount of your pain.<br />
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Herman Annandale

it has to be the hardest thing in the world to loose a child, no matter the age! And then to be reminded by those everyday things you see in life, that only remind you of that blessed life given and then taken. I have only tears, as there are no words that can change your world. I hope you find a strength that will help you to move on, if only to fill the void so that you may have something of a life.

I don't know what to say except I'm so sorry for your loss.

i am so sorry for your loss ...i know saying it doesn't help heal your heart ...but i hear in time we will are be healed and we will see our loved one again ...just keep going ...<br />
remember the joy .....God Bless .L

It has to be the worse pain ever to lose a child, I am so sorry for your loss but I hope you smile at the memories !

This story crushed my heart. I wish there were words to properly express my lament over this writing....

Me and my firts son just 5 y/o boy found on tv one interesting movie about litte boy helping his fatther, fire men in a Fire Station. I can`t remember how this young and little fire fighter died, but was very sad scene for my son crying asking for, In spanish words "el BOMBERITO, bad pronounced as MOMELITO". Little fire fighter was an small heroe but something happen..

im so very sorry for your lost!!!!! i lost my mother 3 years ago and it seems just like yesterday!!! i think about her all the time!! the only thing that gets be thru it is i remember shes in heaven and in no more pain!!!!! i hope this can bring you some comfort!!!! bless you

:') This was a beautiful post. Though I am very sorry for your loss of someone who meant so much to you, I am happy you carry him in your memories so lovingly. Best of luck my friend. Thank you for sharing this <3

you sound like a good person....sorry for your loss but keep your head up baby

sorry to have read this~my heart as well as prays goes out to you~can't but cry

Im so sry :( i cant imagine the pain. Hold to those beautifull memories of him and keep them in ur heart for even. <br />
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Im a firefighter in Portugal, and let me tell you that ur son is a hero cause not every one would want to risk there life saving others. I know he would be a great FF by having that love for this job soon young.<br />
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I wish you the best in life:)

meet with other parents in your situation and start a fundrasiar for orphaned children going into public service. your son will live on in what they do, they never had a father to look after them like you did your son so think of how happy he will be watch over your and their shoulders as a fire fighter, police officer, emt, etc. the day you stop believeing is the day you stop dreaming and with out dreams how can we find hope.

I am so terribly sorry for you lose. It's horrible for a parent to suffer through the death of a child. At least you have a loving memory of him, and you see him in your dreams. Stay strong.

That's one of the sadest things I've ever heard. I'm so very sorry for your loss.

God my soul hurts reading your post.I'm extremely sorry.

All I can do is cry for your loss, I couldn't imagine what you have been through. My thoughts and prayers are with you.

i am really really sorry

HI when I read your story i cont help but smile not because he was taken but as its such a memory that is so happy an its so important that we keep our memories alive and dont dwell on how they left,.<br />
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it must be really hard to deal with at times iv lost 2 boyfriends to suicide so i knw about loss,.<br />
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but thhats another story,<br />
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anyway i just wanted to say your a strength is super amazing and i hope you find peace and just know that your son is still around you his love for you is still with you and itl never leave,so take each day as it comes and when you hear a song or see something that reminds smile caus im sure he would be smiling along side you ,.<br />

This is a way you can keep his memory alive and fresh, even if there is loss to it. There is also love.

I am so sorry for your lost.

That is such a sad story,I hate the idea that you lost a child.To me that is the one thing that you can never recover from.I know he is in heaven and the angels are watching over him

Losing a child is ONE THING a parent should never have to do . . . .It hurts soooo bad you think you will die right along with them! I am sooo sorry for your pain and pray that it will ease up a bit. Wishing you a blessed Christmas and hoping you can remember the good ones you shared with him!

As much pain as it would be to lose a child you must think of him as no longer suffering. This world is full of evil and he was an innocent angel that passed and is in a better place. Honor his existence by looking at the positive. Wish you the best!

This made me cry. I am so sorry.

Awww, i'm sooo sorry for you!!:'(

That is just heartbreaking,I cant imagine the pain that you are going through

Remember we are all God;s children and one day when you go to God, you will see him. Just pray and accept Jeshua and trust in him. I wish you all the best, with love.

Remember we are all God;s children and one day when you go to God, you will see him. Just pray and accept Jeshua and trust in him. I wish you all the best, with love.

I have no words to comfort your loss, except to say that while your son walked on this earth, I'm sure you kept his dreams alive... Peace be with you

My heart is very broken for you hun. I'm so very sorry for your losses.

i know what your going thru i lost my wife in 96 and my oldest daughter in 2007 the drs. told me that cause she was born with a certain disability kids her age don't live past it is hard you will never stop missing the one you lost but hes still with you,in your heart and soul and your memory and thats whats important to remember along with the fun you shared and the smile on his face and also remember he is in a special place in heaven where he gets to be the fireman he wanted to be and hes watching over you .and always if you at times feel like talking with him but think people will think your crazy go ahead and talk he'll hear you its what i prayers are with you.

So sorry for your loss. Its great that you hold on to his memories.. most people try to hide from the past because they are scared to confront the pain. <br />
My Niece passed away not to long ago, and my sister and myself find enjoyment in doing something on her birthday every year. We release balloons for her age. She would be 3 this year, so we each let off 3 pink balloons with memories and thoughts written on them. <br />
Im sure you have your traditions that you do, if you dont mind sharing, i would love to hear them.

that is so horrible :( I feel so sad for you :( must be hard to get through something as awfull is this you have my deepest sympathies xxxxx

Am very sorry to read of this. We have 3 separate families, friends we know well, who lost children in the last 3 years, so we have shared in some part in their loss. Our sympathies.

Oh gosh, I am so sorry. I can hardly imagine your pain. You've touched my heart with your words (and I admittedly I am crying for you and your son right now). Sending you so much love and support right now. <br />

i m sure hes watching u from above . i feel for u

sorry you are dealing with hardest thing in life losing a child! lest you had him to know and love for short time as it was, he is feeling no pain any more. I am sure he would want you to go on with your life be happy as possable

I m so sorry.

My heart is hurting for your lost :( but I'm glad you have memories of your son, I'm also glad you can share your memories with us! It makes me feel good to be a mom of a 9 year old girl,even though I want more and can't I'm grateful. It makes me want to live and the now and don't stress about the future. Every time I see a fire truck or a fire fighter I will know a angel is by. Thanks

This Story Deff Put Tears In My Eyes, I'm So Sorry For You Lost

I understand. I lost my daughter the day after she was born

You are very lucky to have wonderful memories... I miscarried my baby girl and wish I could have that. Never forget him and well done on being so positive... You can be an inspiration

Very sorry for your loss. That was a beautiful story.

So sorry for your horrible loss. My so is 12 now and it hurts to even think of losing someone so young and special.<br />
Love and Hugs mb

I am so sorry.

Your son will be always with you no matter where he is You heart and his heart are connected and will always be. <br />
Hes propably watching you from above with a huge smile in his face ^_^ being proud that he had a mother like you. A mother who wanted her son to fulfill his dream. <br />
Who knows he might already have in his new world

I'm sorry for your loss.

I am so sorry ....i know the pain of losing a child's one that never goes away's always there ..a bittersweet reminder of once was ...i know in time it will be easier ...<br />
as in my life ...i have always felt him close by me ... Hugs and prayers

Saying I understand your pain is a lie , I don't I don't think it's fair when there are so many people who are death row that should die in place of an innocent child , I do admire your strength and pray that god makes right this wrong you have had to endure ...

I'm so sorry

Am sorry for your loss i could feel your pain reading this story.

I'm sorry, I could feel the pain as I was reading your story. I'd seen it also with my mom when my brother passed. She was mourning deep inside for years and we thought she was ok. But there was a day when she had mentioned my brother and that time I'd seen that my mom hasn't let go, then I told her "he (my brother ) was given to you temporarily to take care while he was here and you did your part well, and now he has to be somewhere else and in a good place". After few days I'd seen the enlightment in my mom's words and and I felt that she had let go . I love my brother and priceless memories stays in my heart as always.

Oh my goodness honey I came across this page and my eyes teared up. I am so sorry that you had to go thru this I wish I could take the pain and hurt away. I cannot even imagine loosing one of my children and what it would do to me. I love that you shared this and the good memories of him. Hugs I am here if ever you need to talk. My prayers are with you and your family and May God bless you and give you strength and courage.

I am very very sorry for your loss.<br />
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Hugs, take care..x

I'm so sorry for your loss.

I am sorry for your loss. Just think. Someday you will get to rais him up. Right now he was needed to be a firefighter in heaven.