I Am a Grieving Parent

Lyura

By: xXxAnonymousxWriterxXx

Written on June 29th, 2011

That was going to be her name. Lie-er-ruh. She would've been beautiful..

But she was a rape baby. My beautiful Lyura, whom I would love so much, would have lived with the burden of being the daughter of a female rapist and a scarred daddy. A daddy that, despite his immense love for her, would never have been able to look at her without hating himself. It wasn't her fault, it wasn't mine, but it wasn't right. I absolutely regret the decision to abort my daughter.

I am very much pro-life now. I will never kill an innocent child for something out of their control. Of course, her horrible mother would have more likely than not been wretched to her, or may have killed her later on, so she was eager to have the little fetus sliced up, melted in acid, and scraped off her uterine walls. I wish I hadn't been so selfish, and spared Lyura's life. Taken her into my care, kept her from her mother.

Not a day goes by that I don't wonder what could've been of my little Lyura.

It has been over a year now, and I hate myself for never letting poor Lyura see the light of day.

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Age: 18-21 , Male

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LadyOutspoken

My son was a rape baby and I wanted to abort him but when I saw my big brother cried because him and his wife had to abort before marriage (his wife was married to another man and he was with his girlfriend), I cried and I knew that moment if I killed my son I would never be the same and literally die with him. I lived with my sister for a year or so. Within three months she had 2 abortions and it tore my soul apart for some reason. I was so angry because I said if I could woman up and take care of my child knowing his father doesn't really give a damn then why she couldn't keep my nephew or niece? God had to work on me and amazingly He did! He told me, Kryss, you remember that day you accepted my son (Christ) into your life? No matter what you did, you felt worthy to receive My love and forgiveness, then God said as of today, nothing has change and neither for my sister or anyone else who have done unmentionable things. Yes it still hurts sometimes because I felt like I should of fought for that babies life but I also had to learn not to meddle in others affairs.

The good thing is, you love your baby, you named your baby, and your baby is at rest. God forgives you and loves you. The even greater part about that is He doesn't remember our wrong. Its other people and us who remembers our wrong. Just know that we make mistakes all the time but God doesn't. What you are going through could be a huge blessing to someone else life. You will be able to prevent someone from feeling the same pain you do. Use that pain for good...you will heal in time. Beautiful Lyura is at peace with God :)

Jan 22, 2012
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sarahbethuk

so because she was a rape baby she was killed?

Jul 21, 2011
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- PanicStricken
  He already stated that he felt terrible about his decision and wishes that he could take it back. There's no need to beat him in the head over it.
  
  Jan 21, 2012
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- sarahbethuk
  It was only a question.
  
  Jan 23, 2012
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turnedoffTVgrey

I'm really sorry for your loss. While I myself am very pro-choice, I can still very much understand the feelings of regret one might have afterward. I do believe that abortion is an option that should be available, but as you know, the decision should not be taken lightly.

I know that mothers aborting their baby must attend counseling sessions before and after, but I don't think there is a requirement like that for the dad, who can be just as traumatized as the mother. I really think it would be good for you to attend a few counseling sessions to find a way to help heal this wound. Because while you can't change the past, you can go forward every day and give that love to people who need it. Good luck.

Jul 21, 2011
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