Taken For No Reason

My pain comes from a place unlike others, I did everything right but it all went wrong. March 2003 I walked away from the most chaotic life ever. I had lost most of my children to CPS and found out I was pregnant so not to loose this child. I left everything I knew to give a life to my child. Unfortunately, CPS was on me no matter where I went. So I followed their case plan and gave them what they wanted. With the thousand hoops to jump through and some misunderstandings things seem to progress for me, I knew for my son I would never turn back to my old life but for CPS Nothing was ever enough, 2 years later I lost custody and what was suppose to be an open adoption turned out to be a never see again adoption.
So every September day I remember my loss and cry...don't get me wrong I remember him everyday just much harder in September. 2 years later I gave birth to his sister and hid her to keep her. I see some of my children but have lost a few to adoption. All my losses are hard but for my son, I know I did everything right, and still was wrong.
ymeagain ymeagain
46-50, F
May 6, 2012