My Daughter Is Gone

My beautiful, talented 18 year old daughter was killed by a car Feb 17. I'm devastated and just can't fathom going through life without her. But I have to for my other girls. I function through the day as a zombie. Alive but dead inside. I go into robot mode for my kids and plaster on a stupid fake smile to get through work. life as we knew it is over and I hate when people say "how are you". Well the **** do you think I am? I hate that I'm part of this group now, as I'm sure you all do too.
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36-40, F
5 Responses May 14, 2012

We lost our beautiful girl to colon cancer at the age of 31, on November 02, 2010. We are still in therapy and going to a bereavement group. My husband and I both cried on reading your story. "There will be peace within us " We are told, but so far we have not reached that place. We are sorry for your loss ( sorry just doesn't measure the feeling).

I joined this forum in hope of finding some solace. I now am crying for your loss! I just don't know how to give you comfort when I am so damaged by this horror myself.

I do want to try. And maybe together we can help each other.

i am so sorry ;( god bless you and your family

these words may or not make sense. i share them with you in the hope they might open a door.<br />
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loss, pain, grief....these are natural parts of life. we don't want them to happen to ourselves but they do. <br />
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when it does happen to me....when the illusion that my life will be different to that of others.....i have several choices. <br />
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i can...for example...hold it inside. repress the feelings of pain. pretend that its not bad. <br />
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or , like a dog who has been hit by a car...i can go under the house ( eg run away ) and wait for the pain to subside. <br />
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or, well....if you want to know a third way...just ask me. <br />
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I cannot give you advice because in my opinion we are all different people.. if there was answer that fit everyone we would not be here. I would however say to seek a group we are here.. you have people who know your pain.

Big hugs for you. My son died 2 1/2 years ago. That first year was so awful.

My son passed away mar.8,He was 28, I know how you feel. I miss him more and more every day.I feel the same way, zombie & robot....<br />
this is so hard and life changing, where do we go from here<br />
yes i hate being a part of this group, but nice to meet you anyway