I feel like the worst type of person. I just love the thought of people being interested in me. Earlier this year, I had about five guys interested in me at once. I was only particularly interested in one of them, but I talked (not flirted) to all of them. I loved having the attention and the compliments from multiple people. I've struggled with self-esteem issues for years upon years, which might be why I feel like I need all the attention, but I know that doesn't make it acceptable. Even when I am in a relationship, I still feel the desire to be desired. When I do get into relationships, they seldom last past a few months. I always have a wandering eye and don't like being tied down. I wish I could be happy with one guy and have a stable relationship rather than keep traveling down the road I am. I know it's not normal, but I can't stop feeling the way I do. I don't know what to do anymore.
sewnchaos sewnchaos
22-25, F
1 Response Aug 22, 2014

I totally understand this ! I do the exact same thing like right now I'm talkin to like four diff guys and idk why I can't just pick one and be happy. I've gotten to the point where I don't even try to have a relationship anymore. Although I really want one like super bad ??? Idk