I Never Believed In Addiction Until Now.

Hello and thank you to anyone that reads this post. Here it goes. I will be as brief as possible with my drug history. At age 15, I started smoking weed, drinking alcohol and smoked cigarettes for a short period of time. At age 16, I began using cocaine, various pills such as perocets, xanax, klonopins & oxies. I also began selling weed and cocaine. By age 17, I was trying ecstasy, K2 and had tried huffing a few times. I had also done some ecstasy rolls laced with meth. I was also most definitely an alcoholic; I would drink from when I woke up until when I went to sleep for months, literally. I went to school wasted for 2 weeks straight at one point. By age 18, I started playing around with salvia, acid, adderall and shrooms. By age 19, I tried DMT for the first time and started dipping more into pills (mainly xanax) and psychedelics.

2 1/2 months ago, my friend introduced me to heroin. I had been wanting to try it for a few months and was very excited. I thought to myself that I could handle both the high and the risk that I could get "addicted". Up until now, I NEVER BELIEVED IN ADDICTION. I honestly thought it was bullshit and only weak minded people could get addicted to drugs because I had previously been able to stop doing a specific drug when I wanted to with no problem. Let me tell you something, I never, EVER THOUGHT I would get addicted to a ******* drug until now! EVERYTHING THEY SAY about heroin is TRUE. The high, the risks, the danger, the cravings, the withdrawal, how you will do almost anything to get it and most of all, that you can't ******* stop; that it's the first thing you think of when you wake up and the last thing you think of before you go to bed. I had tried it for the first time, loved it, I thought I would do it maybe a few more times and that was it....I would be done for good with no problem.

By the 2nd week I began using (smoking/snorting) 3x a day. I would spend anywhere from $60-$120 a day on it. My friend would give me some for free too. It was all I was interested in. I THOUGHT I could quit whenever I wanted. I looked dead. I began getting marks and pustules on my face. I lost 13 pounds in 2 weeks. I lost 21 pounds by the 2nd month. That's some serious ****. I had to stop. On November 26th, 2012, I decided to become sober from ALL DRUGS. However temptation gave in and on December 9th, 2012, 13 days later, I gave in and bought a bag of dope. I also randomly bought 2 grams of cocaine. Yesterday, I realized I have to stop with this heroin **** NOW or I never will be able to! I was so happy when I was sober from it, yet somehow I did it. I regret it. Although I have only been doing heroin for 2 1/2 months, that's over 60 days of being high everyday, multiple times a day from it. You may think that I'm not in too deep, but I am. Anyone is at this point...

Anyone who is reading this; DO NOT do heroin ever. Don't ever think that you can try it just once and never again. Take it from me, please. It's not worth it. I never thought I would be saying this. I failed 3/4 of my college classes because of it. I almost lost some of my closest friends. I wasted so much money. My job performance was so poor, I wouldn't do any of my work and one night had to leave early because I was too dope sick. I wish I could take it all back. Trust me. Thank you to whoever has read all this! I know I wrote a lot but I had to get it out there and off my chest. Good luck to anyone who is trying to quit. <3
acideyes acideyes
18-21, F
1 Response Dec 12, 2012

to anyone that had previously read this story, i relapsed a few days after this post by accident, thinking one thing was another but in reality it was actually dope. i overdosed. don't remember much of anything, CONSTANTLY threw up from midnight until 2pm the following day. I went home and slept from 3pm until 3pm the next day...it takes an experience such as that one to realize it really is time to stop. haven't touched it since and never will again

it is possible too quit. trust me. :)