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some days are better than others. throughout my life I have been trying to understand why i often feel so different than others. things affect me very deeply and i am sensitive to everything. if i do not feel something right away, i feel it in my body, for example my chest hurts or i feel naseous or whathaveyou. my mind is very aware of everything around me. i feel as if i absorb everything like a sponge. i often remember when people do me wrong or do something to hurt me, rather than when someone does something good, but i am so appreciative of the good things too. I really try to stay strong despite the way I was born. I am working on accepting this as a gift rather than a curse. I hope that i can connect with others who feel similar to me! xo-Isabel
isabelnightingale isabelnightingale
18-21, F
5 Responses May 14, 2012

those particuarly sensitive to 'feelings' will eventually learn that feelings come and go and that they are not 'ours' individually...none of us is alone

Most people will never see things the way you do isabel, and I know this because I am the same way. But that is ok :-) I agree with pola4321, "I often feel like I'm able to enjoy this amazing secret dimension of the world that others will never experience, just because I am who I am." YES....<br />
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It's like another la<x>yer of sight, absorption and intensity that you can't explain to someone who can't already see what you do. How can you explain or help someone see what is so obviously there to begin with? It is a challenge in some ways. I noticed your age... you will struggle less with this as you get older.... sensitivity is in fact a beautiful thing. When you learn how to best channel it for yourself, you will blossom and not feel so burdened.

O.m.g. you are amazing. We are all the same creature.

I would be honoured if this turned out to be true....thank you :-)

It's a good thing in many ways, but so perplexing for others. Kind of funny when you think about it - (when it's not irritating lol).

Yup, that's it in a nutshell! It's so difficult to deal with these things at times, but, I often feel like everyone else is missing out. I see such beauty in the simplest things at times, or am able to help someone when no one else would. I have deep loving relationships with my children while others are glad their out of the house. I can sit in the grass and wonder about the world going on down there and just sit and enjoy that moment, or truly love the cup of coffee I'm having just experiencing it's amazing aroma. I often feel like I'm able to enjoy this amazing secret dimension of the world that others will never experience, just because I am who I am. You are so right...I too feel burdened with this, but I also know the gift that it is!

Absolutely.

"I often feel like I'm able to enjoy this amazing secret dimension of the world that others will never experience, just because I am who I am."

I love this.

" i often remember when people do me wrong or do something to hurt me, rather than when someone does something good, but i am so appreciative of the good things too."<br />
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This exactly. I have a hard time forgiving and forgetting and I'm much more careful about who I am friends with than other people are. Forgiveness is a virtue they say, but it is also important to understand the value of your friendship. Especially for sensitives like us. I too am trying to stay strong, but I'm finding myself to be more and more cynical these days, and it's hard to climb out.

everyone here who has posted on this board are sensitives I can feel it so strongly. We all have such gifts and the world is endearing us with our blessed gift to be used according to our own divine will.

I seem to be the same as you.Hurt feelings seem to overwhelm me.If someone tells me how they were wronged somehow.I feel it!!!It seems hurtful statements tend to affect me the most and they are usually directed to someone near me but I feel the pain as if they were directed at me. Also strangely,at the age of 38,tear up when viewing a poor deceased animal on the roadway.

This kills me too. I've also been known to stop and pick up bugs from the sidewalk and put them on the grass for the same reason (though I don't cry or even feel bad really at the sight of squashed bugs). When I see animals it's waterworks time.

If I could count the number of bugs lives I've saved! Spiders tho don't always get my sympathy...altho I have saved a few of them as well...maybe if they couldn't run so fast...but thank God they don't fly!!
I became a vegetarian several years ago after seeing something awful on the news ... it was my last straw and haven't eaten meat since. Still working on fish tho. Domestic and farm animals are such victims of our society - this is one of my big issues. So sad.