I Feel So Exposed and Raw Sometimes I Don't Know How to Deal With It

My favourite days are those when I wake up and feel like I have a protective, hardened shell around me. I know I'll be able to get through the day without anything to overwhelm me. These days are the greatest because most things just bounce off me. I don't know what I do to wake up feeling this way, it just tends to spontaneously happen.

The worst days are those like the ones I've had today. It's like I'm this walking sponge, absorbing everybody's thoughts, emotions, intentions and feelings. It's like I'm equipped with these two six-feet antennaes on the top of my head, satellite-style, picking up all sorts of frequencies. The worst thing is when I just can't seem to SWITCH THE THING OFF. My days just end up on a downward spiral, to the point I'm just craving to get home to the sanctuary of my apartment, to curl up alone to try and restore myself. It's horrible walking around feeling so exposed...like everbody can tell what you're thinking/feeling, as if it's written all over your face. This is the moment paranoia sets in - those days are the worst. Thankfully I don't work in an open-plan office anymore - that was really the equivalent of hell. I work in my own office now, but i still deal with customers, which can be terribly tough for a sensitive.

I would like to know, how do you deal with being such a sensitive soul? How do you ground yourself and protect yourself on a day-to-day basis? What techniques or tools do you use? I know I'm capable of getting that protection, but not sure what causes that shield to just switch itself on some days, and other's, it's just not there at all.

I'm interested in hearing your experiences and insight!






missvelvet missvelvet
31-35, F
1 Response Feb 16, 2009

Thank you for sharing your experiences. I can really empathise with you. I accept that it's OK to be me and that I need time to myself everyday to recharge. Otherwise I don't cope very well and I prefer to cope well : )