I Am a Hopeless Romantic
Some people see my ability to talk to others as a talent, gift, or even a miracle. Once I begin talking to any stranger if I want to I can win them over. I think this is closer to a curse for me.
First I almost instantly earn their trust in most situations. I am told they have no idea why they trust me but they do. Then the way I speak and act has them fall for me time and time again. Without a doubt they believe I am the one they want to be with and no one else can make them feel that way. I need not even flirt, compliment, or suggest a romantic interest in them and they still fall for what some may call charm. I find this frustrating as I am not attempting to make every woman or man I meet fall for me. I do not need people whom I have no interest in romantically chasing after me. They are filled with a passionate flame that builds up like a bonfire doused in gasoline. Quickly burning bright with romantic interest in me.
However as the saying goes, "We always want what we cannot have." as I seem to never fall for anyone. I have been single for going on five years now and have turned down many women. Going so far as to even turn down sex with them or any type of sexual interaction. Each one just simply wanted an escape from everything and I always seem to be a dream outlet. I never dream with them as I make it clear I have no interest like that but it never seems to matter to them.
Now enough about me and my Incubus tendencies. The real reason I am writing this story is become not too long ago I decided to start seeking again. In fact I have already fallen for someone whom I desperately want to give my heart too. Sure the distance between us is a factor but a minor one at best. She is not always willing or able to talk to me due to her situation but I understand. However I am at a crossroads with my heart that I have discovered through hard experience.
I learned years ago to not give my heart out to someone who is unable to or unwilling to fully give their heart to you. This may seem like a terribly mean way to say it however in my own safety I worry about such things lest I be left in tears. So I have the choice to either wait for her to reciprocate my feelings for her fully and honestly or move on and not have to wait. I want to wait on her badly despite my better judgement as she is all I have been thinking about for some time now. I just wish that she could also find happiness entirely on her own without the help or freedom she may receive from others. Sure she downs her self about how she doesn't believe my interest in her is true and that my intentions are pure. All I can do is commit time, dedication, and devotion towards her even if she doesn't like it I will to prove myself and how much I care.
First I almost instantly earn their trust in most situations. I am told they have no idea why they trust me but they do. Then the way I speak and act has them fall for me time and time again. Without a doubt they believe I am the one they want to be with and no one else can make them feel that way. I need not even flirt, compliment, or suggest a romantic interest in them and they still fall for what some may call charm. I find this frustrating as I am not attempting to make every woman or man I meet fall for me. I do not need people whom I have no interest in romantically chasing after me. They are filled with a passionate flame that builds up like a bonfire doused in gasoline. Quickly burning bright with romantic interest in me.
However as the saying goes, "We always want what we cannot have." as I seem to never fall for anyone. I have been single for going on five years now and have turned down many women. Going so far as to even turn down sex with them or any type of sexual interaction. Each one just simply wanted an escape from everything and I always seem to be a dream outlet. I never dream with them as I make it clear I have no interest like that but it never seems to matter to them.
Now enough about me and my Incubus tendencies. The real reason I am writing this story is become not too long ago I decided to start seeking again. In fact I have already fallen for someone whom I desperately want to give my heart too. Sure the distance between us is a factor but a minor one at best. She is not always willing or able to talk to me due to her situation but I understand. However I am at a crossroads with my heart that I have discovered through hard experience.
I learned years ago to not give my heart out to someone who is unable to or unwilling to fully give their heart to you. This may seem like a terribly mean way to say it however in my own safety I worry about such things lest I be left in tears. So I have the choice to either wait for her to reciprocate my feelings for her fully and honestly or move on and not have to wait. I want to wait on her badly despite my better judgement as she is all I have been thinking about for some time now. I just wish that she could also find happiness entirely on her own without the help or freedom she may receive from others. Sure she downs her self about how she doesn't believe my interest in her is true and that my intentions are pure. All I can do is commit time, dedication, and devotion towards her even if she doesn't like it I will to prove myself and how much I care.
By:
sintobus
Age:
22-25
