It Just Gets More Insane...

today i awoke to the sounds of packing. she started getting her effects together and began to seperate what was her's and mine. there has only ever been " our " stuff. i am still in complete opposition to this move, but she assures me she cannot stay here with me having to talk about " us " a lot. i guess i have no say in the matter. i just feel so strongly about this  i am unable to bite my tongue for more than a couple days. i spent about two hpours pleading for her to think this over again, but in vain. the decision has been made. she does not want me. she just wants to be friends. i finally decided to take the boys to eat lunch and hang out for a few hours while things cooled off. we had fun ... upon returning home i descovered she had left with her sister to the YMCA, thats cool, we go a lot. unfortunatly while she was gone i found her intimacy replacement of me ... which should sound like it would raise curiosity, which it did, bit of course there is zero chance of that. this gets deeper and deeper into this place where it really seems unavoidable. i never thought i would be replaced like that. am i less of a man ? am i not a good companion ? am i not a consciencious lover ? i have always tried to please ... how do you compete with a machine ? i feel insignificant and humiliated ...

grogorthox grogorthox
31-35, M
1 Response Feb 27, 2010

talking to you you are a hell of a stand up man,who loves his wife and his children,and for what ever reason she can't see it or doesn't care....you have been through a lot that a weaker man would not survive,and i know it's gut wrenching and heartbreaking but you will survive this too...just let your boys know how much you love them and when the ;pieces fall into place you see the whole situation in a different light...hind sight is always 20/20....here if you need to talk....