48 Hours Later ...

two full days and i have not seen or talked to her. unbelievable, 16 years and this is the first i have been able to say that. we have always seen and talked to each other at least some everyday. i know not what to say. i miss her. i wish this were not true. i would take her back if she could assure me that everything was repaired. or at least repairable. it sounds insane, i know, but i love her. she is the mother of my boys and our house feels different. she has been such a huge part of my life, it feels like i have lost a limb or a body part or an organ. not like i lost a shoe or a shirt or something like that. those are replaceable. parts of the body are not as easily replaced. everywhere i look around here, i am reminded of her. in the bathroom, simple things like her robe is gone. this is surreal...i know there is an ending to this, i just do not know what that is yet ...

grogorthox grogorthox
31-35, M
2 Responses Mar 3, 2010

Yes, it is tough.. 16 years of being with someone and they grow on you. Time will help ease the pain.. and give yourself time to grieve and reflect on the 16 years of memories. Get to know yourself again and find who you are in - in this new world of You, being single and a father.. My best wishes to you.. Life is what you make of it. Live and decide what it is you want to do with yourself...

it 's 16 yrs of love that walked out,of coarse it is tough,here if you need to talk