Hyperchondria And Anxiety!
I used to have a normal, happy, anxiety
free life until I was 19. When I was 19 I was in college and had a bad trip on shrooms which caused me to have panic attacks all the time. I went to the doctors and was put on a couple different anxiety medications until i found lexapro which worked for me. I also was diagnosed with a hypothyroid at the same time and have been on synthroid ever since. I eventually dropped out of school and moved home that same year because I couldn't handle all the anxiety. I was better with not having quite as much anxiety for about 2 years. When I was 21 I was rushed to the ER because I was having stroke like symptoms (couldn't talk or say anything that made any sense, nauseous, almost blacking out, numb). It turned out that I had a severe bladder infection that went into my kidneys and then made my brain swell which caused the stroke symptoms. Needless to say it was an absolutely terrifying situation and has scarred me ever since. I've had a preoccupation with my health ever since (its been almost 4 years), with times that are worse than others. In the last couple months I've become completely obsessed over my health and have finally realized that I'm a hypochondriac. I've had a bunch of tests done lately because I have had extreme anxiety and panic attacks nonstop, I can barely function. I've lost friends and a boyfriend in the last 2 months because of it and am afraid I'm going to push my family away too. Well, this last week has been the worst because I had my thyroid tested and I now have a mild hyperthyroid so I was told to just decrease my dose of synthroid a level by the nurse. I've been so completely out of contol obsessing over my hyperthyroid and my symptoms I cant function. I'm paranoid that I should see a doctor and ask his opinion instead of just the nurses. I need help!