I've Been This Way For A While Now.
I'm 18 years old and I am a hypochondriac. I started noticing I was worrying around 15 when I first discovered razor bumps. I thought I contracted genital herpes from my first. I didn't. Then it moved on to smaller things like "I'm feeling a little hot today, do I have a fever?" I started looking up my symptoms on google and I feel like that was the end of it all. Everyday if I have a little ache or a little pain, I'm worrying about my life. I start to think things like "What if I'm crazy and not a hypochondriac?" It's controlling my life, I'm constantly thinking aboutwhat I would do if I had some horrible disease. It goes beond illness. It's as far as seeing on the news that someone was beaten and raped, I think the very next day I will be beaten and raped. If I'm in a unfamiliar place, I think that people are going to break into the house and kill me and whoever is there too. I waste money at the doctor each time I feel like there's something seriously wrong with me. I don't think I can take this any longer. I'm driving myself insane. All I do is worry, I can't stop. I don't low what to do or how to act. It's hard getting through the day sometimes. I need help, but so far nothing has helped. Nothing is working.