Another Sunset... Means Another Day Passed Without Someone

Where to start. Yes, I've never been in a serious relationship before, it's just hard to find the right ones for me. I know it takes time but I'm feeling very empty now. People have asked me 'Have you ever been in love', my answers to them 'Yes, I've been in love and No, I haven't been in love anymore'. Sometimes, I don't know that question means. Every woman has their own beauty but the point is I'm attracted to white feminine women only because I'm a feminine myself, it's weird but hopefully that's not too much to ask. I wish I could have had someone right by my side to laugh with, to share beautiful things in this world with, to cry where I know there's always a shoulder for me to lay on. I know there are so many women out there and finding Ms.Right is the hardest thing I've been doing and yes, it's timeless. Here I am, all alone this night again. In the outside, it looks like I'm letting thing come naturally but deep down inside it drives me crazy. I do fear of the night in someway, it makes me maximum my loneliness even more. I thought I have found someone but everything has its past. Something accidentally brought me to EP where I can find myself releasing stories and real feelings out. Does anybody else with their loneliness out there ? I hope I'm not the only one who feels this way.