I Am a Lesbian and Im Lonely
I think that's a country & western song title.
It's really tough out here in the World let me tell you.
I spend a lot of time alone.
And its not by choice. Lost most of my friends to:
Aids
Suicide
Drug overdose
And let me tell you its hard making new ones.
I'm trying to find volunteer opportunities ones that match my interests.
Tried volunteering for local community theater, but they all want experience or you would have had to major in Theater.
So I'm looking into volunteering in botanical garden somewhere.
Can't afford to move just right now. I want to though.
Living here in the Pacific Northwest its real difficult if not impossible to make or meet friends.
It seems to me that everyone is so suspicious of you. You know being the new kid on the block. Its like you need some sort of security clearance just to meet some nice people which I am.
But being single with no friends carries with it a huge stigma.
People look upon you with negativity instead of warmly embracing you into their fold.
When I've tried getting to know someone there is always the excuses.
E.G. " I already have enough friends, I just don't need anymore"
WHAT EVER!
You name the excuse & I've heard it.
Once several years ago I was talking with a woman whose excuse to get off the phone with me was that she needed to oil her softball glove.
Really?
Most just lie.
Friends are real difficult to find, meet whatever you want to call it.
It's painful & its real difficult like climbing up the side of a mountain with only your hands, you have no gear, no food.
It's difficult on a scale of 1-10 its a 100!
With really poor resources here were I live & the groups geared towards a specific group like couples, singles w/kids, subcultures, or the really weird degenerate stuff it makes it real impossible just to be an everyday person trying to meet good friends.
Don't want druggies or dopers
or
those involved in weird stuff...you can use your imagination on that one.
Don't want to get mixed up with anyone who is into that degenerate type of lifestyle because that's not who I am.
Then you have someone you've met then guess what? They have a girlfriend already & OH BOY your not ever welcome back! See what I'm saying.
Don't know what to do on this one.
I'm in therapy but that's just not working out. I feel worse than when I went in.
So, I'll have to go to school to learn carpentry then relocate on a volunteer homestead until I get on my feet, get a place, apply for employment.
I've just given up.
No matter how nice you are someone hates you or is passive aggressive.
It just sucks.
I don't have much family either.
Only my elderly Mother who is as passive as a cold fish.
Father is gone going on wow seven years....had to suffer with the grief on my own because whenever I reached out for support no one seemed to care which is why I'm angry a lot of the time.
No one listens to me or even cares.
I'm not looking for sympathy nor do I want any negative posts.
I'm really vulnerable & I just don't want your mean comments so don't leave any please.
I try real hard to rebuild my life but its an enormous task. It's like trying to draw a blueprint of a city & you have no team to help you.
I am there to support someone. I do that a lot. Just wished I could get that in return. Sometimes I need a shoulder to cry on.
It's really tough out here in the World let me tell you.
I spend a lot of time alone.
And its not by choice. Lost most of my friends to:
Aids
Suicide
Drug overdose
And let me tell you its hard making new ones.
I'm trying to find volunteer opportunities ones that match my interests.
Tried volunteering for local community theater, but they all want experience or you would have had to major in Theater.
So I'm looking into volunteering in botanical garden somewhere.
Can't afford to move just right now. I want to though.
Living here in the Pacific Northwest its real difficult if not impossible to make or meet friends.
It seems to me that everyone is so suspicious of you. You know being the new kid on the block. Its like you need some sort of security clearance just to meet some nice people which I am.
But being single with no friends carries with it a huge stigma.
People look upon you with negativity instead of warmly embracing you into their fold.
When I've tried getting to know someone there is always the excuses.
E.G. " I already have enough friends, I just don't need anymore"
WHAT EVER!
You name the excuse & I've heard it.
Once several years ago I was talking with a woman whose excuse to get off the phone with me was that she needed to oil her softball glove.
Really?
Most just lie.
Friends are real difficult to find, meet whatever you want to call it.
It's painful & its real difficult like climbing up the side of a mountain with only your hands, you have no gear, no food.
It's difficult on a scale of 1-10 its a 100!
With really poor resources here were I live & the groups geared towards a specific group like couples, singles w/kids, subcultures, or the really weird degenerate stuff it makes it real impossible just to be an everyday person trying to meet good friends.
Don't want druggies or dopers
or
those involved in weird stuff...you can use your imagination on that one.
Don't want to get mixed up with anyone who is into that degenerate type of lifestyle because that's not who I am.
Then you have someone you've met then guess what? They have a girlfriend already & OH BOY your not ever welcome back! See what I'm saying.
Don't know what to do on this one.
I'm in therapy but that's just not working out. I feel worse than when I went in.
So, I'll have to go to school to learn carpentry then relocate on a volunteer homestead until I get on my feet, get a place, apply for employment.
I've just given up.
No matter how nice you are someone hates you or is passive aggressive.
It just sucks.
I don't have much family either.
Only my elderly Mother who is as passive as a cold fish.
Father is gone going on wow seven years....had to suffer with the grief on my own because whenever I reached out for support no one seemed to care which is why I'm angry a lot of the time.
No one listens to me or even cares.
I'm not looking for sympathy nor do I want any negative posts.
I'm really vulnerable & I just don't want your mean comments so don't leave any please.
I try real hard to rebuild my life but its an enormous task. It's like trying to draw a blueprint of a city & you have no team to help you.
I am there to support someone. I do that a lot. Just wished I could get that in return. Sometimes I need a shoulder to cry on.
By:
Kungfucaine
Age:
41-45
,
Female
