Married To A Man But Like Women....I am Very Confused...Need help!
I am rather new to all this so everyone will have to be patient with me. I am 24 years old. I have been married to my husband for 6 years, together for 9. We have 3 boys under the age of 6 together. he is the only guy I have ever been attracted to in my life. I have always been attracted to women although i have never acted on it because I grew up being told how horrible it was. My husband knows how I feel and fully supports me. I do not want to leave my husband at all. I love him very much and we have 3 children together. But I still always feel like i am missing something. Yes I am attracted to him still so its not like I can't stand the sight of him. I guess I am just confused on what I should do and how I feel. I am interested in getting involved in another woman maybe just to see how I feel about it because its something I have always wanted but I feel horrible for my husband. And I don't want to end up having feeligns for another person and losing him. He doesn't seem to mind at all that I like women. But it still bothers me. And I don't even know how to go about finding someone in the first place let alone who would be understanding to my situation. I am clueless. Now that I am reading what I wrote I sound really stupid. I just don't know what to do with this whole thing and am wondering if there is anyone out there that has been through the same thing. Any advice would be appreciated but please don't be cruel. Thank you