How To Start, What To Do, Where To Go

I love my husband, but I don't know if its enough. I like women. When we watch tv or movies I watch for the women, I start to stutter when I'm talking with a beautiful women. And that's been going on for I don't know how long and I've only dated men so I fell in love with one and we got married, but the attraction isn't there the intimacy isn't there it hasn't been since we got married. The problem is well there's lots of problems but one of them is I don't know if these feelings I'm having if there genuine or if I don't know I got married to young and wasn't able to really figure out what I want. I'm not writing all of this down hoping someone will take potty on me and try to help me out, no I'm writing cause its nice to put this all down in words instead of keeping this all bottled up. All that is going through my head right now is a lot of ifs, I just want to cry my self to sleep at nights. Because I want to be happy and be with someone who excites me and can make me happy, but at the same time I love my husband and I don't want to make him sad and I don't know if I can be without him. So how I said. How to start, what to do, where to go
Aleryia Aleryia
22-25, F
6 Responses Feb 15, 2013

Hi there!
As I read your story, I felt like you are really unhappy and everyday your on a solitude state. For me, first is you need to know what you really want and what can make you happy. It would help a lot if you will have time for yourself, not necessarily break up or cool off but go on a vacation wherein you can relax and think of what you really want. With that you would know what would be the answer and of course your husband will understand whatever decision you would tell. The only person who can help you with this is yourself since you are the one who knows best when it comes to yourself. Good luck and hopefully you will be happy soon.

I know exactly how you feel.

I feel like your story is my story. !

Can you teach him to touch you in a way that is arousing? Maybe if you can get him to make you feel good you can expand on it. I hope you can find a way to work it out.

I feel what u saying ...we are basicaly in the same ****** boat.Dammed if u do...dammed if u don't !!!! Sucks big time!!!

I am going through the same thing you are. I myself am lost, and keeping myself in the no intimate, out of love marriage because i am putting his needs before mine. Its hard i know, but i hope one day to put myself first and be happy.