I Am a Lesbian Mom
Hey! I'm Jessica, and my story could take days to explain everything. So I'll just give a brief summary and some stuff about me :)
I'm 21, a brand new mom (my son's birthday is May 24, 2011), and live in South Texas with my girlfriend. I've always known I was at least bi curious. My best friend (besides my baby sister) happens to be my first love and ex-girlfriend of 2 years, but she lives in Oklahoma. Apparently every one else knew I was gay, according to my baby sister, except me. The following conversation took place between my sister and I one day at school my junior year (she was a freshman) in high school:
Sister: "Jessica, I don't know why you keep dating men."
Me: "What are you talking about?"
Sister: "You are gay and the only person you are fooling is yourself."
Me: "No, I'm not....I like both men and women."
Sister: "Whatever Jess, it's your lie."
Need I say more? This conversation took my place a week after I started dating my "high school sweetheart"...a former junior varsity football star (until he injured his back in a game) who would use me simply for sex and arm candy and the "trophy wife" as he sold drugs out of our apartment, unknowingly to me.
ANYWAY...that was in 2006. Here it is, the end of June 2011....and obviously I've been with men since then or else I wouldn't possibly have a new baby. Well....my baby's father was a HUGE mistake. Actually...every man between my best friend and my girlfriend now was not only huge mistakes and disappointments, they were totally boring in every way. It's taken me 5 years to admit that I'm a lesbian...and I'm proud to say it. Feels like a HUGE weight is lifted off my shoulders. And it took a single weekend with my girlfriend to make me get to thinking about who I really was.
Now that you know the summary of my "coming out of the closet", here's a little bit about me. I'm a singer, writer, poet, dreamer, romantic, sentimental fool, sucker for babies (human or animal), and a country girl raised in the city. Grew up in Fort Worth, but the city never felt like home to me. I love the feel of being in the middle of a field or forest with no skyscrapers, landfills, city buses, or pollution to clog my nose, my view of the sky, and elliminate any more of my brain cells.
I write a little of everything...songs, poems, stories (i've attempted a novel, but never have the patience, or time anymore, to actually sit and work on it). My way with words on paper is amazing, according to the few people who have read my work. I made lettered in choir in high school and have been in countless church choirs. So my singing isn't all that bad. I can put my son and my girl to sleep at the same time anyway.
Okay....I feel like i'm rambling, so I'll just let people read and ask what they want to know :)
I'm 21, a brand new mom (my son's birthday is May 24, 2011), and live in South Texas with my girlfriend. I've always known I was at least bi curious. My best friend (besides my baby sister) happens to be my first love and ex-girlfriend of 2 years, but she lives in Oklahoma. Apparently every one else knew I was gay, according to my baby sister, except me. The following conversation took place between my sister and I one day at school my junior year (she was a freshman) in high school:
Sister: "Jessica, I don't know why you keep dating men."
Me: "What are you talking about?"
Sister: "You are gay and the only person you are fooling is yourself."
Me: "No, I'm not....I like both men and women."
Sister: "Whatever Jess, it's your lie."
Need I say more? This conversation took my place a week after I started dating my "high school sweetheart"...a former junior varsity football star (until he injured his back in a game) who would use me simply for sex and arm candy and the "trophy wife" as he sold drugs out of our apartment, unknowingly to me.
ANYWAY...that was in 2006. Here it is, the end of June 2011....and obviously I've been with men since then or else I wouldn't possibly have a new baby. Well....my baby's father was a HUGE mistake. Actually...every man between my best friend and my girlfriend now was not only huge mistakes and disappointments, they were totally boring in every way. It's taken me 5 years to admit that I'm a lesbian...and I'm proud to say it. Feels like a HUGE weight is lifted off my shoulders. And it took a single weekend with my girlfriend to make me get to thinking about who I really was.
Now that you know the summary of my "coming out of the closet", here's a little bit about me. I'm a singer, writer, poet, dreamer, romantic, sentimental fool, sucker for babies (human or animal), and a country girl raised in the city. Grew up in Fort Worth, but the city never felt like home to me. I love the feel of being in the middle of a field or forest with no skyscrapers, landfills, city buses, or pollution to clog my nose, my view of the sky, and elliminate any more of my brain cells.
I write a little of everything...songs, poems, stories (i've attempted a novel, but never have the patience, or time anymore, to actually sit and work on it). My way with words on paper is amazing, according to the few people who have read my work. I made lettered in choir in high school and have been in countless church choirs. So my singing isn't all that bad. I can put my son and my girl to sleep at the same time anyway.
Okay....I feel like i'm rambling, so I'll just let people read and ask what they want to know :)
By:
Jbogg1989
Age:
22-25
,
Female
