I Don't Know What I Am Either

When I was younger my best friend and I play "house" all the time. That what we use to tell her sister when we were upstair in her play house, the truth is that we would be having dry sex, I remember how good it felt afterward. That happen from 3-5yr old. Most people would say that is young and it was just a phase. We went to diffrent schools and got together again when we were 13. This time we had the house to ourselves. We fool around but couldn't go all the way because she was on her monthly friend. I am pretty sure if she wasn't we would of. I was aching for more. After that I think I was questioning myself.. and didn't know what to do about it. So I stay alway. Growing up I was eagar to fine that feeling that I had experience when I was younger, and couldn't fine it with the relationships I had with men. My last relationships with a guy, went sour. Since then I haven't dated for 4 years. I really want to know who I am before I started dating again.
Luckycharm94 Luckycharm94
36-40, F
1 Response Jul 21, 2010

I think what you need to ask yourself is am I more attracted to men or women. We all want to find that right person for us. I think deep inside you know who you are though, it may be a bit scary at first but you eventually learn to accept who you are and say to hell with anyone who has a probelm with it !! Don't end up missing out on love because you are afraid to love again beacause of previous relationships, I am going through that now and it is the most difficult thing I have ever dealt with because we no of noone elses intentions but our own. But if you are aching to be with a woman the only thing I can say to you is try it, thats the only way to know whether or not your attraction for women goes deeper than your attraction for men !!!! Good Luck in finding yourself !!!