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I Am a Lesbian

I'm Madly Inlove With My Bestfriend

By: elran
Written on March 25th, 2012
By: elran
Age: 18-21 , Female
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  • Nuadin

    I think you need to tell her regardless of the ifs and buts if the situation. You owe it to yourself and to her to be honest. She seems really understanding. I fell in love with a good friend of mine in high school and told her my feelings for her. She actually already suspected and at the same time was surprised. Just like your best friend she had a guy she was super in love with and I didn't expect anything from her. Telling her released this anxiety I had been holding on to. Though I was sad she didn't return my feelings she had handled it better than anyone could and didn't treat me any differently. I'm glad I told her and if really allowed me to begin healing. Though I still loved her for a long time after. We eventually grew apart but not due to either of our feelings. I'm glad I did what I did. I'm now in love with someone far more beautiful and so amazing. She sends me a lot of signals and her brother even told me she confessed to him about having confusing feelings for me. I'm trying to get the courage up to confess many feelings... even with everything I'm super scared to tell her the truth. Regailing my story and listening to yours helps... I hope that we can both have the strength to confess our feelings to the ones we love. I know in many case with the details I have you are probably easier but there are some complication. Anyways what I'm trying to say is good luck

    Mar 13
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    • elran

      wow.. yeah.. uhmm.. actually my feelings for her kinda died down now.. uhh i've learned to accept the truth that we'll never be together.. though i was never given a chance to really confess to her cause i was afraid and i know that's pretty normal. I'm happy that she's happy with him. though I kinda feeling it now that we're like having this uhh thick invisible wall between us.. we're not as close as we were back in highschool and that's kinda sad i miss her.. as my best friend.. thanks for commenting ^^

      Apr 29
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  • JanieNudiePants

    The worst thing about having a crush on someone is being rejected, not having someone beat you to them. She hasn't rejected you although you haven't shared you love intentions. She probably knows... My advice is to stay in the picture and stay close... Then let nature do its thing...

    Feb 9
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    • elran

      sad cause we're not that close as we were before.. but its ok.. ^^.. i just miss her as my best friend.

      Apr 29
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    • JanieNudiePants

      sex and friendship don't always mix

      May 5
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  • lookiinforluv

    Love makes us do things that we don't always understand and your not stupid. I'm sure everyone of us has done something that we think about from time to time for love. Don't let this get you down. A friend of mine who is a lesbian and she got married. I tell her we have so much in commom we both like girls.

    Nov 3, 2012
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    • elran

      does she love the guy?

      Dec 20, 2012
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  • ImRerfxTiDn

    There once was a girl who knew didn't know anything about love other than love towards her parents. Her mother moved around a lot and so she was forced to go along. She never onced thought about loving someone other than her parents. That was until she transferred into a city completely different from all the others. She was able to friend a strange group of girls that acted outgoing but then there was one that began to stand out. Darrian seemed really weird at first, until day by day went by and into her high school years she began to develop these feelings, like and then... love. This occured mainly because the girl, Darrian, hugged her and kissed her cheek. Still the feeling was true in her own heart.

    Since the girl was one grade above her secret crush she wasn't able to see her as much. Then Darrian got a boyfriend and the girl's heart was shattered. She began to feel this heart stabbing pain and felt as if there was nothing to live for. She was desperate having found out what a love really meant when it was towards a cherished person, and so she went online and looked for someone to replace the feelings. It worked, that is until the that person left her due to the fact that she wanted to start her life with school and not some young teenager. So the girl cried and was filled with anger and loneliness.

    "Hiya. Thanks for the add. ^_^" "Oh, no problem." "I read your profile and liked what I saw." "Thanks. ^ ^"... From there a new relationship began. The girl was able to gain back her happiness. She was able to start anew with another that was promising to her future, one that would return her feelings and not deny what she felt.

    To this day she loves that person with all her heart and moves towards that love. She may not actually be with her but she's happy that her feelings are returned. Yes, every now and then she encounters her first love and remembers and yes, there is still some of that pain and love left but all that disappears when it comes to her soulmate.

    Do not give up hope. Most importantly do not give up on love. Also sorry, I got carried away. Haha. ^ ^'

    Oct 25, 2012
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    • elran

      its ok to get carried away .. ^.^ .. and thanks for this lovely story .. i'll try not to gave up on love.. its just that .. i'm getting tired of it .. getting tired of waiting.. but at the same time, too afraid to open my feelings up to someone .. aww gosh.. sorry if its too confusing..

      Oct 28, 2012
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  • starkeeper1

    hi elran ... im sooo sorry with your firend... Your really gud.... But try to understand the peoples to whom u have more belives and more affection.. Try to get marry soon...

    Oct 24, 2012
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    • elran

      marriage, is not in my mind as of now.. scared of commitments

      Dec 20, 2012
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  • booyeahh

    I'm feeling what you are feeling right now ! :(

    Oct 23, 2012
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    • elran

      *hugs*

      Oct 28, 2012
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  • slinwaag

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    Sep 14, 2012
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  • lesbiantalk

    Damn,you're not stupid but ... you just have to let her go. As far as I see, she's not feeling the same thing for you. The stupidest mistake gay people do is to fall for a straight person. This thing never end up good! Never! You can be around her but do not sacrifice your future because of her. You've done enough, just try to let it go, I know it's hard but try to let her live her own life and I can assure you there's a wonderful girl/woman out there for you! Just give yourself a chance to love someone else.

    Sep 2, 2012
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    • elran

      yeah.. :) .. thanks.. and I got over her now I think.. no more feelings for my bestie.. hehe :)

      Sep 2, 2012
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    • elran

      well deep romantic feelings :)

      Sep 2, 2012
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    • lesbiantalk

      Happy to hear that cuz that really suck! :-))

      Sep 2, 2012
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    • elran

      yeah it does.. and i want to tell u some thing more if u don't mind me chattin wth u?

      Sep 2, 2012
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    • lesbiantalk

      Sure, go for it! :) I'm still kinda new here and it's kinda hard to orientate but go for the chat ;)

      Sep 2, 2012
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  • mrswaycurious

    You are a sweet person, probably as beautiful on the outside, as you are in your sweet inside. I would love to have a friend like you.

    Aug 31, 2012
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    • elran

      aww thanks.. :)

      Aug 31, 2012
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  • Raven2o11

    seems when I have read stories of girls coming out they realize this with best friends. not all the time but I'm sure you get the gist of it. I understand totally =/ thank goodness for amazing best friends who aren't fazed by it. Anyways, would love to be friends, I could use one as well

    Aug 27, 2012
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  • lissa90

    I I know what you mean the mental anguish is terrible

    Aug 27, 2012
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    • elran

      yeah it is.. and it really is driving us insane u know.. whew,,

      Aug 29, 2012
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  • myid2000

    Hi...hmm i can understand your feelings.....even i am in similar situation....but couldnt express my love...or she just dont like it....hmm....but keep ur future in mind....and keep one thing in mind..

    Our fate is predefined....so....first be in a position so that never question you then....your beloved will come to you when she really needs you...

    Aug 25, 2012
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    • elran

      thanks for the comment.. :)

      Aug 25, 2012
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    • myid2000

      can we chat for sometime??? if you dont mind???

      Aug 25, 2012
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  • Lilibit

    Just be patient.. im in same situation and i know how hard it is.. but dont give up hope! like you said, she doesnt think bad or so about girl who like other girls, says its normal.. you never know what comes in future

    hopefuly best for you

    Aug 24, 2012
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    • elran

      yeah.. But i gave up on her already.. cause if not, I'll just keep on hurting myself knowing that she will never love me the way I love her.. And she's still in love with her guy and I think they'll be back together in no time... For now ,I'll just wait for that special girl who'll just come into my life,, :) thanks for commenting ..

      Aug 25, 2012
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    • Lilibit

      yes what you did is right.. sadly.. had to do same step yesterday aswell s: its gonna be hard but..

      You'll find the special girl, no doubt :3

      Aug 25, 2012
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    • elran

      I hope so .. :)

      Aug 25, 2012
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    • Lilibit

      as said, no doubt :3

      Aug 25, 2012
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  • grdlgrl

    You don't know that she'll NEVER feel the same way. She's confused, just like you are. She probably doesn't want all the attention that coming out would bring. She might just be trying to be straight just for the sake if being straight. After all, a lot of society still frowns on gay couples. If you don't tell her how you feel, how will she know? But, you have to be patient. If there us any hope for the two of you to be together, you must wait for her relationship with her boyfriend to subside. I'm hopeful everything will work out for you. You're very pretty and shouldn't have any trouble attracting

    Anyone you want to attract. .

    Aug 24, 2012
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    • elran

      thanks for the comment .. :) .. and I think I've realized that I'll never choose love over friendship.. I can't lose it .. and if I continue having strong feelings with her knowing that she really loves the boy 'yes until now.. and I think they'll be back together in no time', I'll just keep on hurting myself ..

      Aug 25, 2012
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  • trickdaddi

    Wish you both well ;) May i get an add please gorgeous :)

    Aug 18, 2012
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  • supermae

    same story except that we've met in college....theres so many of us in love with our bestfriend..and then confused then get hurt...its been 10 years...shes my bestfriend and the love of my life no matter how it hurts...

    Jul 11, 2012
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  • F3R0X

    It seems that a lot of us are going through this. It's tough. Good luck in the future. :)

    Jul 7, 2012
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  • AlternateUniverse

    Almost the same boat, difference is that I already told her that I am falling in love with her. Good thing though is she did not avoid me and we do still hang out once in a while. But I can't stop thinking about her everyday, and I've wished so many times that what I am feeling would go away. =(

    Jun 26, 2012
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    • elran

      *hugs* .. sad thing is it seems that we can't get rid of these feelings.. :(

      Jun 26, 2012
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  • breakdance1107

    i love your stories and would love you to comment on my pics...

    Jun 26, 2012
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  • sammi11

    Good luck sweetie

    Hugs

    Sammi

    Jun 26, 2012
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  • scorpion25

    i think were the same ^^ but i don't know if i crush her or i love her ... i was happy to be with her and she's also .. but one day came it is changing to being mortal enemy relationship .. :(

    Jun 23, 2012
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    • elran

      *hugs* I understand.. Its pretty painful and hurtful.. :(

      Jun 24, 2012
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    • scorpion25

      yea :( thank you babe ...

      Jul 3, 2012
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  • N3RD87

    I have friend like that she's my best friend in the whole wide world and I was and still am madly in love with her for 7 years now. But I realized that our friendship was just way too important to jeopardize by perusing a relationship. Being together in a relationship is totally different than the friendship you have now. You may feel like she's the only one for you now but there is someone out there even better for you and maybe your friend was just meant to be just that a very amazing friend because as you get older the harder it gets to find friends like that so don't take it for granted.

    Jun 10, 2012
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  • Nijiko

    Aw, you get a hug. :c

    -hugs-

    Jun 4, 2012
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  • KnightTime2012

    "I know I'm pretty stupid.."



    I don't think that at all.

    Young and maybe a little confused and finding your way in the world but I don't see stupid.

    Jun 4, 2012
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  • HTMK

    I know what you mean, I told my friend that I liked her a lot and now because of it we don't talk anymore but I realized that I would still love her to this day if I didn't and looking back I don't regret it because the truth did set me and I've moved on. If we knew each other in real life I sure that I could be a better support than on a computer but just tell her even if you lose the friendship because you're hurting and she doesn't realize it and if she doesn't like you back and treats you any different then she's not really your friend. You deserve better than to cry by yourself and feel hurt by her words even if she's ignorant of your feelings. Do yourself a favor and let yourself be free from the feelings that are hurting you

    May 25, 2012
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    • elran

      I agree.. it would have been better if we knew each other in real life.. and ur right .. but I'm in the process now of forgetting these feelings that I've got for her .. and slowly its working and when its finally gone, that's the time I'll tell her .. and I'll give her time to heal for the wounds her ex bf left her.. Cause no matter what I'll tell her, she just brush it off.. and I don't want my confession to be brushed off.. hope u got it if its a lil confusing..

      May 25, 2012
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    • HTMK

      I know. You want your feelings to have an impact on her, to make her feel something, anything to give to the impression that your feelings are precious to her even if she doesn't accept them. I'll tell you like it is, don't get your feelings up cause she might just brush it off but that means that she wants to make it like its no big deal to save a friendship but like I said set yourself free. Also if you separate yourself from her the feelings you have will fade away but it will be no good cause if you were to see her again all the feelings will rush back.

      May 25, 2012
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    • elran

      yea.. ur right.. its just so hard.. thank you so much for commenting.. I really appreciate it.. :)

      May 25, 2012
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    • HTMK

      :) don't worry we're all still young and there are more opportunities that will come our way i assure you.

      May 25, 2012
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  • Ally69

    Give her a big hug.... She needs you more than she realize!

    Love

    Ally

    May 19, 2012
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    • elran

      yeah.. she's so naive.. just ignore my care for her.. :(

      May 19, 2012
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  • jatkins65

    I can feel the love in this story. Best of luck.

    May 3, 2012
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  • lilylorenzo

    i hope not either but good luck wish you the best :D

    May 3, 2012
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  • lilylorenzo

    i know how you totally feel the same thing happened to me and i ended up telling her but it didnt ruin our friendship but good luck and just have confidence :D

    May 2, 2012
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    • elran

      thanks.. I hope that it won't wont ruin our friendship too after I tell her that..

      May 2, 2012
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  • Unique4real

    Gosh! risk friendship or tell your closest friend that you are in love with, and also risk your future by taking the courses that you are not into damn!. I feel like i should tell you this if you haven't done it already, weekend is coming so why not you and your friend din out go to have some fun enjoy your time with her, just go to movies or rent movies to watch at home, try to drink some booze so to give you courage to tell her that you are in love with her as a lover and close friend as well. You try to see what will happen, just try to give it step by step the issue so tense but wish you see if she loves you too as she said she is into girls as well so may be she feels same at you but may be need you to make the first step. The way you say you sacrifice made me feel that what a hell lover you are, and wish she say she feel love towards you as well so good luck.

    Apr 26, 2012
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    • elran

      thanks .. But I can't right now cause she's still not over her ex boyfriend and in pain for that..

      May 2, 2012
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    • Unique4real

      Aw! i understand hell but being there for her will make feel much better an dknow that you are really care much about.

      May 2, 2012
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