Best Friend Forever?Okay here it goes: i love my best friend. Typical story right? But just let me biotch about it! :p
We have been friends since 6th grade and since then, inseperable. Right now, in highschool, we have a group of friends, but we still consider each other "best friends" and we have been walking to wichever school together morning and night since elementary school. In seventh grade i liked a guy and she also liked other guys, but in ninth grade i realized i had a crush on another girl. I did not think it was a big deal and i even told my group of friends but i started noticing more and more girls. My philosophy was to just enjoy it and that there was time later on the lable myself. In 10th grade- at a sleepover, we were sleeping in the same bed and i started getting nervous and thinking about her in a ... Not friend way.. :p but after that, the crush grew and would not go away. I still find other girls hot, but after a couple months in denial, i accepted i had a big time crush on my besf friend. For two years, i never told her and kept it hidden, but a couple of months ago- i told her! And i got rejected. She wasnt grossed out or anything, and she gave me some time to calm down. Since then, we are still best friends, although now she knows that i like her. This can cause awkwardness sometimes, but sometimes we even tease eah other about it. I havnt told my parents anything. My best friend is the only one that knows that i havnt liked a guy since middle school. I truly cherish her and dont want to stress her out by throwing my feelings at her but i know that secretly i still hope there is a small chance that it could work between us. So far, my feelings have not changed, but i am open to other girls and crushes. Maybe after some time ans seperation my feelings will change, but these past years will always be precious memories of my crush.
Timmykitten 18-21, F 0 Aug 26, 2012