I Am a Lesbian
Hi everyone,
I am in need of advice from all you wise women out there. :) I am 39, and I've only been out of the closet for a few months. Most people took the news o.k, but some haven't, and that's o.k. too. I just got to the point where I realized going to my grave with this secret was no longer an option. Literally, I was killing myself with my lie. I've been married for 17 years, and I always considered myself bisexual. I remember thinking that I found "attractive people attractive" when I was a teenager. I think I was just afraid to embrace the feelings that I was having toward females. Growing up in a very Catholic family, I knew that telling them I'm a lesbian wouldn't be taken well. So, I went down the road that I thought would be easier, and married my husband. He was heartbroken when I told him three months ago, but since then or relationship has evolved into a close friendship. We have filed the divorce paperwork, and I'll be moving out of our house in 20 days. We both know that this is the best decision for both of us, but I've never lived alone, and that scares me to death. My main question is this...How much time should I take before I start dating women? I want to start right away, but there's another part of me that worries about my state of mind. I don't want to make any more decisions that I'll feel guilty about. I also don't want to search for someone to fill the void that I'm feeling because I'm alone. I just want to be ready before I put myself out there. Any advice will be appreciated. PS...I live in a town with only one lesbian bar. I don't want to make a bad impression. :)
I am in need of advice from all you wise women out there. :) I am 39, and I've only been out of the closet for a few months. Most people took the news o.k, but some haven't, and that's o.k. too. I just got to the point where I realized going to my grave with this secret was no longer an option. Literally, I was killing myself with my lie. I've been married for 17 years, and I always considered myself bisexual. I remember thinking that I found "attractive people attractive" when I was a teenager. I think I was just afraid to embrace the feelings that I was having toward females. Growing up in a very Catholic family, I knew that telling them I'm a lesbian wouldn't be taken well. So, I went down the road that I thought would be easier, and married my husband. He was heartbroken when I told him three months ago, but since then or relationship has evolved into a close friendship. We have filed the divorce paperwork, and I'll be moving out of our house in 20 days. We both know that this is the best decision for both of us, but I've never lived alone, and that scares me to death. My main question is this...How much time should I take before I start dating women? I want to start right away, but there's another part of me that worries about my state of mind. I don't want to make any more decisions that I'll feel guilty about. I also don't want to search for someone to fill the void that I'm feeling because I'm alone. I just want to be ready before I put myself out there. Any advice will be appreciated. PS...I live in a town with only one lesbian bar. I don't want to make a bad impression. :)
By:
tany321
Age:
36-40
,
Female
