I'm not really sure how to begin this long story of how I feel and how my life is... For as long as I can remember I've had an interest in women. I have had many bf's (most of which were awesome guys), but I just never felt that special connection. I guess, in all honesty, I have been, and might even still be in love with my best friend.. I just don't know anymore. My feelings are so confusing because I know I shouldn't be feeling this way. I feel like I don't belong and dont fit in... I come from a very conservative family that thinks being gay/lesbian is like the worst thing in the world so I know if I ever even mentioned my true feelings I would lose them :( I'm in college now and just wishing I had someone to talk to about all of this... Just a friend that will be here for me and be non judgmental. If anyone out there is like that, or has experienced what I'm going through, I'd truly love a friend to talk to.